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What is a Caul?

A caul is a portion of the amniotic sac that clings to an infant as it is being born.
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In obstetrics, a caul is a portion of the amniotic sac that clings to an infant as it is being born. As a result, the child is born either entirely or partially still inside the amniotic sac, which often forms a veil over the infant's face. Historically, cauls were the subject of many superstitions; someone who is born with one is known as a caulbearer. Statistically, about one in 1,000 babies is born this way, and this number is often lower in developed nations due to routine interventions in the labor and delivery process.

In Europe, many people believed that a child born with a caul would be protected from drowning as long as the tissue was preserved. Cauls were especially prized in fishing communities. Other superstitions included the idea that caulbearers were born to rule or lead, or that they had supernatural powers over water. One might, for example, make an excellent dowser, since he or she was supposedly in tune with water.

In some parts of Eastern Europe, people believed that an infant born with one was doomed to be a vampire later in life or after death. Some people destroyed cauls at birth to prevent this fate, and in other instances, the tissue was dried and ground into a powder that was fed to the child at a certain age, in the theory that this prevented vampirism.

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Being born with a caul is not usually dangerous. The infant continues to receive oxygen and nutrition through the umbilical cord, and the sac can quickly be cleared away from the infant's nose and mouth so that he or she can breathe. In regions where people have superstitious beliefs, a midwife may take special measures to preserve it.

To preserve a caul, the tissue is allowed to dry out entirely and then it is stored on acid free paper or cardstock. It may be wrapped in plastic or tissue paper to prevent degradation; examples of cauls over 60 years old can be seen in the hands of their owners in some parts of the world. By tradition, a caulbearer's special status was usually only retained if the tissue was kept.

Due to the superstitions surrounding cauls, some people historically sold them or artifacts that they claimed were cauls. Advertisements offering these rare treasures for sale can be seen in some publications as late as the 1800s. Typically, the item was purchased as a protection from drowning.

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anon340290
Post 115

I need help, I believe I was born with a caul, and now that I have read the stories my life all makes sense. My question is if it's a bad thing that I reached out to a Native American healer to help me understand all of this and help me get over all the pain and sadness I felt growing up. I added this anonymously because this computer doesn't let me register. --pinky48

anon335140
Post 114

I'm a 25 year old caul obtainee. I live, and love life and God. Blessings happen to blessed people. We are truly blessed. Just utilize those blessings to help others. Take your time. Life for us is long. As long as you believe in God and continue to search for him in your dreams. Know that you are what you are and possess what you possess. Whatever God sees fit for me, it is for me. Just give with good intentions. I'm always spinning a circle of blessings.

anon324642
Post 113

I also would love some info regarding children born in a complete amniotic sack. My daughter was born in hers in 2011! I have not found a lot of info on this!

anon256696
Post 110

Many times have I found myself in situations uncalled for, when people who do not even know me feel I have passed judgement over them and I do not even know them. Being a caul bearer is difficult for us and those who genuinely care for us. I believe that I will never fit in because although I have tried all my life it seems that I do not fit anywhere and it hurts. I was told to stop trying to fit in that I will never feel accepted, that my goal is to bring love, light and good will, and not to expect it in return, so even though I have a family, loneliness and nonacceptance have been always a part of my life.

I love humanity but see what humans are truly capable of and it hurts to see how we as people have allowed our world to become like this. With all my love, please stay strong and keep bring light where there's darkness. I understand you fully, as I also share your feelings.

anon242142
Post 109

"Persons of negative character may often react to Caulbearers..."

Does this have anything to do with being attacked by people I do not even know? I've been harassed electronically (electronic/cyber bullying) for several years now by people I do not even know, and most of them have affiliations with atheists, vampire/witches/wiccan/gay/lesbian channels.

I never understood the hostility because I wasn't one to judge people based on their affiliations or interests. I only began to notice their associations when it became apparent that most of my attackers belong to such groups. I was told I was born a caulbearer.

Bless4Ever
Post 108

@anon206821: Your request is a quite interesting one. Remember the caul is part of us as we are born, so saving it is traditional and necessary. You can contact maybe a midwife service and see what they do with the ones where the parents don't believe in its purpose and see if you can acquire it. Good luck on your quest.

You can also take swimming classes to improve your possibilities of not drowning. It will decrease your fear of water and thus enable you to enjoy it fully.

Water soothes this soul. Touch it on a beach on a warm sunny day and let it course through your toes and close your eyes and feel the sun energize your whole being. It's amazing! Now go to your happy place and realize that there is none other like you.

Take care.

anon206821
Post 107

I read here that in the 1800s they were sold as a protection against drowning. Now I'm no swimmer and don't know how to. I was hoping to obtain a caul as a protection. Does anyone know where hopefully someone will donate one to me?

werewolves88
Post 106

I understand what you mean Bless4ever, but it's my choice, plus if I don't learn how to channel my energy I will keep making things broke or maybe worse. To be honest, I'm actually a spiritual person, and I believe every living thing has something guarding it and there's nothing wrong to believe in lots of gods or goddesses. I don't have to obey one god because in the old days where christianity wasn't found, lots of people followed the old ways of religion and I'm also learning how to follow the wicca path. It doesn't mean I will do spells on people since I'm not like that. If you do spells on people, you will get it worse, so i don't really want to take that chance.

I'm friends with them (psychic friends) but I don't give myself fully to them. I know stuff about psychic people and I know the limit. I'm sorry if I sound bad by not giving myself fully to god. I know there is a god but it's my choice in what I want to believe or give myself to. People can judge me as much as they can but I know myself and if I'm happy doing it, why should I stop just because of what people say about something?

No one knows the real me. Only I know myself, so it's my choice and my decision if anything happens I'm the one who will suffer and no one else. But thank you for the advice. I will always keep it in mind.

Bless4Ever
Post 105

@Werewolves88: I have learned of your new decision to find where you belong, a path to lead you to the answers you seek. If you found a group of friends "Psychics" who are willing to help you figure this out: be careful!

Once you are in you will learn of things you will not like or want (it may become too late).

You are young and you have read posts here from anonymous people that this path is one to avoid.

Although some of us have that "intuition," we work with a powerful guide. Not all psychics are good, and here is why. Psychics are known to become portals (for evil or good spirits). If you are a portal, you are surrounded by spirits wanting your attention. If you go somewhere and become a portal and don't know how to deal with it, you'll be in so much trouble you'll need spiritual relief. They won't be able to remove them (unwanted spirits) without the right power and authorization.

We all seek answers, but patience is a major key in life. I know you don't have a strong spiritual foundation - you don't attribute the goodness (gift) to the higher being: God. That is why I say to you be careful.

My friend, good luck on your journey. You will be missed.

werewolves88
Post 104

I don't mean to hurt your feeling by saying that I got a bad headache from reading your problem. To be honest, I can feel things well no matter how far they are. I don't know why but I do, and I can do stuff I can't explain.

Just a few days ago, my friend's car broke down just as I got in it. She knows it was me. Luckily, she didn't blame me for it because I told her I had a really bad, bad night and I didn't really mean to make her car play up.

To be honest, I know no one here can help me and that's why I've tried to find someone who is near me to help me and I found them already, so i don't really need to be here anymore.

I only replied to you because I know it must be hard for you and I wish I could help you but I can't. I don't even know how to since I'm in the process of helping myself and figuring things out about myself. I have so much energy that I can actually make something happen, for example, like my friend's car. So I'm trying to learn how to control it so I don't make our house electricity go down for a few seconds or break my friend's car, etc. To be honest, I don't really care about what anyone would says about me here because no one knows the real me. So I know you're upset. I forgive you for your words. I hope everything will be fine for you soon.

bellmar
Post 103

@werewolves88: You see, your head hurts when you read someone else's problem, and you see someone respond to that person's problem, and not yours.

werewolves88
Post 102

Oh bellmar, I don't know what vibe I got from you, but every time I read your post, it hurt my head really bad. Sorry to hear what happened to you and I wish I could help you but I can't because there's something about you that I can sense and it's sort of give me a bad headache. I don't know why.

werewolves88
Post 100

I haven't posted anything here in a few days. I've been very busy with my personal life, but anyway I just wanted to say that I've met a few people who have a bit of psychic abilities and etc. so they let me in with their group so they will be helping me from now. At least I don't feel alone anymore. Yay! Thanks for helping, guys. Hope one day our paths shall meet again.

bellmar
Post 99

Thank you bless4ever for responding.

I've been praying. I'm so tired, though. when I mentioned the witch was riding me, this means exactly what I said. Google "when a witch rides you".

Thank you so much. Keep praying for me.

Bless4Ever
Post 98

@bellmar: I read your post and would like to say this if I may. I do hope you are doing good health and mentally. Spiritually, I feel you are on the right path. I read the other post you put up about your neighbors as well. I feel that this would give you a due cause. Let the courts hear what you have to say. This may work totally to your benefit and hers. You will not only let the world know of these practices, but you would have it documented as well. Also she would learn to control her "religion" and not expose anyone else who does wish exposure.

Remember this though: it doesn't matter to the courts your beliefs; it matters that physical and mental aspects are at play here, like distress and harm.

I will pray for this and ask the Lord to put your heart, soul and mind at rest. Give this to God, no longer have it be your burden but let God handle this. That is what I do. I pray when it's too much for me to handle and give it to the Lord for resolution.

When you said she was riding you, can you explain that please? Does she have power over you? Not enabling you to speak - was this a dream? It seems that you do have your hands full. I will put you on my prayer list.

Be careful and may God keep you safe!

bellmar
Post 97

I need you guys to lift me up in prayer. I posted a couple of months ago about my living condition, which is, my neighbor is a member of this occult group called "bast", and she has a lot of cats hanging around my door.

I was always pleasant to her. I went out of my way to be nice but she is evil. She had me arrested. She told a lie on me. Even though it's a municipal court charge, I still have to hire an attorney. For now, well, she has her friend who is also our neighbor living upstairs above me, to harass me.

I have been praying and pleading the blood of Jesus around this house like crazy. I'm dealing with a live witch and demons. God help me! I'm tired, my friends. My body is weary.

Today, I fell asleep, and this witch was riding me while I was on my side sleeping. I could hardly speak or move, but in my mind, I was screaming Jesus Jesus then finally I was able to speak. I said, "I command and direct you to leave this building in the name of Jesus, right now you demons". Afterward, my entire body was sore, almost like I've been fighting.

Reality sets in, then I get weary. I ask God, "How much longer will this go on? Please send me help God, for I cannot fight these demons alone. There re too many."

I thought of you guys tonight. I need you all! Please pray for me. Please.

werewolves88
Post 95

Thank you for replying back, Bless4Ever. To be honest, I was wrong, too. Before I found this forum, I always thought I was the only one like this. Now I know there are more people out there like me, which is awesome! I don’t feel so weird anymore.

Well, I could tell you what happened last night in my dreams and it came true today, which is not really a surprise, because I had this really bad ache in my forehead before I went to bed. I didn’t think much about it last night because I’m on my monthly time right now, so I thought maybe it was making me feel bad, but I should have known better. Oh, well. Sometimes you just never know how these abilities work. They just pop up any time they want. But anyway, last night, I was dreaming about how housing in Australia is getting bad and pricey and I saw me and my partner’s family saying we couldn’t afford a house yet and had to save more. The real estate lady called us and said we didn’t get the house that we wanted to rent. And this morning, the real estate lady did call and say we didn’t get the house. Plus, we were even thinking of buying a house and on the news they said something about some houses where the owner will give you the house after few years. You pay the money to them and they said it was much worse than a bank, because you have to pay double and some of the owners might scam you and take your money away and etc. Well, we were planning to get that type of house but it’s just weird. I dreamed about those two things and they came true the next morning, so we did end up having to save more money to buy our own house.

So yeah, bits and pieced like this seem to happen time after time and sometimes, when I think about some people I haven’t seen for a while, then the next day or on the same day I would see them, so it was a bit shocking sometimes. Like today, I’ve been having rough day and not really in a good mood. For some odd reason, strangers and animals are coming coming near me. I don’t know why a few random old people just talk to me about something and it seems I just can’t stay upset for long. People seem to look at me more than usual today for some reason. I thought I looked weird, but I just look the same as usual so I don’t know why people seem to react like that towards me today. I guess it’s just something in the air today or something.

Bless4Ever
Post 94

@Werewolves88 and all others who are reading these posts. I'll tell you one thing. Life is indeed full of surprises. You think you are the only one in this world who goes through weird things, but how wrong we have been, but in a good way.

To have these "abilities" are awesome. But yes, it does come with a price. The feeling you get at times that there really is not many like you, me and us. Where are we, who are them?

The Lord has allowed me to see things that the normal eyes cannot. Yes, the eyes are the windows to the soul. I always say that! You can tell a lot from a person's eyes. But looks can be deceiving -- how true. Behind those eyes lurks a world of uncertainty and for others, no hope. That is when you increase your sensitivity and trust in what you see and feel.

It is true, I am a firm believer of the Lord. The things that happened to me feel more directed in more of a spiritual fashion. I believe there are not so many of us out there. I believe those who have lived longer understand that patience is the key to life. That one of the best things God did was one day after another. You get a second chance to do it right.

Not too long ago, I heard a voice call to me saying: "help me" in my room. I woke up and the cartoons were on. I got spooked. Again I heard it and it was during a commercial. I called for my daughter to see if it was her, but it wasn't. This I have had since I was a child.

On another occasion I would go into my little guy's playroom and the battery operated toys would start moving, playing a tune or whatever it is they do. I asked my little one and he says that they really don't turn on by themselves. (I figured they had a sensor). One time I had a little dog, remote controlled. It was in the basement. I went downstairs and I heard the little dog bark and heard the swish of the tail. These actions were only controlled by the remote, but I had the remote put away and I don't think it even had batteries. I went to the dog to shut it off, it was off. I know what I saw: the dog was on the floor. I never put loose toys on the floor, but in bins. So it was weird. I didn't fear it, and I eventually got rid of it. I sleep with the TV on. I hear so many things that I'd rather sleep with the tv on and think it's the TV making noises. It gives me piece of mind.

One time I felt the need to call someone and while I dialed they were on the other line. They said I was getting ready to call you, and I said I know. Are you okay? I started talking to her.

My mom, I couldn't find the phone. Finally I found it and as I was dialing, she was on the other end. I answered her call and she was calling me because she was worried about me. I told her I was fine. She said how did you know I was calling you? I just did. I called my spouse and told him to go ahead and get the donuts and he was silent. When he got home, he told me he was at the store buying them, so how did I know where he was? I just knew. My pastor told me he was going to pray at a lady's house, and I told him to take off his tie. He asked me how did I know "why" he was going to her house. He was pale. But I just knew.

I told my friend that her son was going to disobey her and find his way here, and five minutes later the little boy was at my house, she looked at me like how did you...? I just did. Some things I feel I just know, maybe I am very perceptive. But it's gotten stronger, and I have learned to control it. It's not nice to finish other peoples sentences. That is why I say you'll learn to use it wisely. That is why I say it is God given because if I know with anticipation what the person needs or feels, I have time to pray and ask the Lord for guidance. That is what I do: I ask the Lord for guidance, all the time. So through me they feel safe and loved when all others don't seem to care for them and I tell them the things that God has done for me. My faith in the Lord keeps me safe.

Have you had spiritual experiences? You and I have many things in common. Animals, wisdom (just knowing), sleepwalking, nosebleeds, dreams and many more. Tell me more.

werewolves88
Post 93

@Bless4Ever: Thank you for replying back to me. Well it’s lucky that the guy got caught again since he was not a good man at all, and lucky for your abilities that you could sense something about that man. That’s what I love about this ability: we can sense when something is wrong with someone, sometimes. I normally can read by their body language, attitude and the sense of people around them or environment, although people normally are not comfortable being looked straight in the eyes, but I know a lot from someone’s eyes. Maybe that’s why they say eyes are the windows for someone’s soul.

Well, my dad says that things were fine with me after the accident that happened in the Buddhist temple since I didn’t get hurt or anything and my dad says I was normal, like nothing happened. Even now he can’t figure it out. Well, there’s is more a lot to my story -- weird stuff. When I was eight one of my mom friends asked me what lottery number should she buy and I told her the number and said that was going to win and she bought it and the next day she won 2,000 dollars and she told my mom about it and say it was me who picked the numbers, and of course I got something out of it. She gave my mom a bit of money from her winning ticket. But my mom wasn’t happy because she didn’t know about it and she didn’t want anyone to know about me. I mean, the things I can do sometimes and she kept saying to me I should stay away from people because I’m different from other kids, plus it seemed to be that, ever since I was little I could fix something that I never knew how to fix.

I could figure out a way how to turn on the air conditioning in a hotel room when no one told me how to do it. I just looked at it while standing on a chair, since it was the old type of air conditioner where you have to turn it on with your hand and it’s up on the wall. So I figured out how to turn it on and my parents were shocked, because I was eight. They told me off, but I just knew how to turn it on by looking at it, I don’t know how. Even when my walkman was broken, I took my dad’s tools and things and opened the walkman and fixed it without telling my dad and when he found out, he just shook his head. Even when I was little, I asked my uncle something about how to deactivate a bomb, since he was in the bomb squad in Special Forces and I told him that a certain colour will deactivate the bomb and he was shocked and went to my parents and asked if they told me about it and my parents said no. He told them what I told him about what colour it was at that time and he just shook his head and asked me how I knew and I said I just knew. He even said to my parents I’m one weird kid.

Sometimes when we watched National Geographic, I could guess something out of the blue and it was right and my mom started to get freaked out so she asked me to stop watching Nat Geo, especially on topics like egyptian and roman people. Then back when I was still young I use to sleepwalk a lot and talk in my dreams while laughing. I don’t know why, but it has stopped now.

My mom couldn’t help seeing I kept doing it without me noticing, so she shook me and I was awake and scared and ran to my room, while my mom cried because she was freaked out.

Besides that, some random people chat with me, which is awkward, because they often say I’m really nice and they like talking to me when I don’t know who they are. Kids like being around me. For some odd reason, people say I have a gift around kids and that’s why I was famous for baby sitting around my cousin, since I know how to deal with kids. I don’t know why. People like being close to me, which is weird too, and every time I help stray cats they seem to get attached to me, even if I help them once, because I remember my last stray cat I helped.

She was a black cat and my mom said it was bad luck to help the cat and I said I didn’t care what she said. It was when we visited my grandparents house for the last time because my grandpa passed away when I was seven and my grandma passed away when I was 15. So I was 16 when I saved the cat, but for some odd reason, after I helped that cat, she kept coming at night time and could find her way to get inside the house and sleep next to me because I could hear a purring noise and when I woke up, there she was. When I pushed her away a bit from me, she just kept coming back to sleep next to me. Even when I slept on the couch, she would sleep at my feet so I couldn’t get rid of her by any means. She just kept coming back every night and when it was morning, she would go away and only come back when it was night time. I ended up having to ask my cousin to take her because we live in an apartment and we can’t have pets, which is sad. She was a really good cat. I don’t know what was wrong with the cat, but she just liked me a lot. I miss her. I do have cats that try to sleep next to me but none like her. She just kept sleeping next to me night after night. Wish I could have had her as mine but my parents said no. So yeah, it was a bummer.

So that’s another of the weird things that seem to happen around me. Even now I still can figure out a way how to do stuff that I never learned before which is good, and I’m thankful for that. Plus, because of these abilities, I know how to sense people around me and things around me and whether I should avoid it or should I just go with the flow, although I know how it’s going to be. But I just give it a go but I’m still careful of what I do or say when I have a bad sense about some people and some places. This is a plus, but if I can avoid those types of people or situations I normally will avoid them. Better to be safe then sorry.

With these abilities, I can know when someone is upset, mad, happy, etc. just by looking at them, no matter how much they try to hide it. I feel like someone is with me sometimes. Well, I do sense it, to be honest, but rarely. Sometimes I can feel someone calling my name, or feel like someone is touching me when there’s no one at all with me.

I remember when I was 18. I was awake but I couldn’t feel myself moving or open my eyes because I could hear someone talking to me and he said he knows I hear him and he knows I’m awake but I couldn’t move at all but it did not scare me though, because, for some odd reason, he just make me feel comfortable around him. He told me that he wants me to know that he is watching over me all the time, although he can’t visit me anymore after this because of some rule up there that doesn’t allow any of them to be doing this because he already broke the rule and he will watch over me, although he can’t always be there for me. He told me something else about me being special and different or something like that. I’m not sure because it’s been a while, but I will never forget how safe I felt at that time because I could feel he touched my face, but it was so gentle and I can’t describe it. He told me just to be strong, no matter what was put in front of me because he knew I could do it and he told me that everything will be all right soon, that I just need to struggle a bit more and be patient because it be fine soon.

I could feel he was next to me although I couldn’t move, but then he told me he had to go and wanted me to remember that he will always watch over me and told me not to forget about it and that my alarm clock would make a noise soon and it did. I open my eyes and he wasn’t there anymore. It was weird, to be honest. I’m not sure what he is. Has anyone had that kind of experience? Just asking, so yeah, those are some odd experiences that happened to me.

Bless4Ever
Post 92

@Werewolves88: I am happy to hear from you. Your second to last post was hard. I am getting a clearer picture about your situation.

I wanted to let you know that I too, have suffered a great deal. There is not enough space here to write about some of the things I have seen, heard and been through. I cannot say that God has not been there for me, because I am alive and I have a beautiful family which I love wholeheartedly. There is someone is this world who makes life worthwhile.

That was an amazing story about the Buddha temple, lion and ball. Even the strangers wanting you. Did anything bad happen to you after the ball incident or strangers approaching you? Did this put fear in your heart or was it an interesting event in your life? People can see something in you and it’s not evil or they would not want you. That’s a good thing.

The fact that you removed the ball while others could not, confirms you have the magic touch and that there is truly something there, and that is also a positive thing. You help stray animals. What a blessing to look into those eyes of the animals you save and know it was all your doing. So yes, your life matters, because you were probably their guardian angel. Another positive thing!

Sometimes we do feel that God is not in our lives. Yes, bad things happen. I get bad headaches and random nosebleeds too. Always have. I have also had strangers come up to my mom and request me or even have me touch them -- awkward. But I have had my share of bad things, too. It cannot be all good all the time, and life is unfair, but here you are now.

Your posts are probably helping many people understand the nature of this gift. It comes with a price. You are proof of that! But you are very young and with time you’ll learn how to use to maybe help “stray people” since you have the experience. Someone gave you that gift. Someone has watched that you didn’t get snatched. Someone has made sure that you survived so far. You have learned to care for yourself. You have learned how good or bad people can be.

Have you had experiences where you have felt someone there with you? Tell me about an experience that you are thankful for having this gift. If you unlock the negatives, then what’s left are the positives. Tell me something happy that’s happened to you that because you had the gift you survived it. Loved it. Understood it.

Here’s mine: There was a man who was imprisoned for killing a girl he liked (he thought she was his girlfriend). Her mom disagreed with their relationship. He learned a lot of things while talking to her. Single parent, mom’s only home in the late evening. No male figure in the house. Things kids say to people during a conversation. The girl told him they couldn’t see each other any more. He followed her home and waited. When her mom and her were together, he strangled them and sexually abused them. Killed them both. This man served many years in prison.

One day he was on my school grounds. I was walking home and he insisted on talking to me because I was nice. I was also 13, young, cute and pure. He started a conversation and praised me for all the wise decisions I had made. He laughed with me and I started to feel something wasn’t right. He was a perfect gentlemen. But something still didn’t feel right. I asked him about the dark circles under his eyes, and he said he never slept well. I had never seen him before but I told him I had to hurry up and I ran home a different way. The next day after school he was there again. Someone told me to stay away from that man. He was caught in school grounds again on the third day and I told him I got home late and I was going to get in trouble next time. Then I had a bad feeling. I saw something in his eyes that wasn’t right, and I felt it wasn’t safe. This gift allowed me to sense his true bad intentions. Than someone told me how he brutally raped and killed his “girlfriend” around this area. I learned that the police picked him up and back to jail he went for following a minor (me). I’ll be waiting.

werewolves88
Post 91

To Bless4Ever and anon194701: I know you both mean good to me and I do admit my abilities sometimes get the best of me because it has never gotten this strong before, but I guess it has just gotten stronger or weaker with time since I was a little girl, I was around five years old at that time and me and my dad were out somewhere because we were on holiday. My mom didn’t come because she was at my grandparents, so only my dad and I (yes I’m daddy’s little girl, but we’ve grown apart now. I guess both of us changed). Anyway, back to the story. We went to this Buddhist temple where they had these lovely statues, so my dad let me see them, since I said I wanted to climb on the tiger statue with something inside its mouth, so my dad took a photo of me with the statue. After that, I climbed down and I don’t remember well what happened after that, but my dad says I took the thing in the tiger‘s mouth out and held it like a ball as if it wasn’t made out of stone. My dad freaked out and quickly took it from me and put it back and told me to not say anything about it, since some of the monk seemed to see what I did. So my dad put it inside the mouth again and the weird thing is, after my dad did that and he tried to pull it out again to see if it would stay nicely, like it did before, when he tried to pull it out, he couldn’t. The ball didn’t move or even rotate or anything. It seemed like there was nothing wrong with the statue and my dad said I was there looking at him and giggling, and he told me that he doesn’t know how I did it but I did do it. Then he quickly picked me up, since there seemed to be people in the temple walking towards us. My dad pretended like nothing happened, but when he turned back, he saw those monks and a few other people try to pull the thing out, but they couldn’t pull it out and they were looking at me and my dad while my dad tried to pretend like nothing happened.

When we got back, my dad told my mom and my grandparents about it and my dad said he would never ever take his eyes off me anymore. Poor dad. Even now, he still remembers it like it just happened yesterday. After that, things seem to come and go till I grew up and had those dreams about my dad. So yeah, that’s the point where I got really scared.

Plus, when I was still a baby, my mom told me that when she and my dad were in town and this one old guy came up to my parents and told them that I’m not like other babies. He said I was different and he wanted to buy me from my parents. My parents told him no, and they would report him to the cops if he kept disturbing them, so the old guy walked away. Then, a few years later, when I was eight, this lady walked up to me and my mom when we were in town and said she wanted me to come with her since she said she wanted to borrow my umbrella (which is weird) and said I’m different from other little girls she saw. My mom told her to stay away from me or she would call the cops on her, and she went away. Since then my parents decided to watch over me really close, actually more like overprotective. When they were busy, they would send me to my grandparents so that I wouldn’t be alone. But even staying with my grandparents didn’t help much to protect me, but at least they are there all the time for me and I love them a lot. There’s a few times I think back about people saying that god will help people who in needed help, and when really bad things happen to me before was he even there? Did he even try to stop the bad person from stop hurting me? I was about 17 when it happened, and it is still fresh in my mind like it happened yesterday. Did he even do anything just to protect me? When I always go to church and pray for him and ask for his guidance and help, did he ever heard me or give me a sign that he was there? I know you two really trust god in all his will but there’s few times when god has let me down.

I had to suffer a lot when I was a child, for god’s sake. I was a child. Why did those things happen to me? After those experiences I learned not to trust people. I learned how to survive, protect myself and I learned well not to listen much to what bad people are saying about me.

I became grown up really fast after that. I am lucky my grandparents had big fruits/peppercorn, animals farm so I only have those animals to be around plus I got to bring an stray animals to my grandparents since they wouldn’t stop me, because they know how much I love animals. That’s the most fun time I had, so I am happy in my early days even though I had bad experiences and I still try to be happy and make myself happy since it’s not my fault it happened. I’m just a victim and I will not let myself be the victim anymore.

After few years, my sister was born and I was not lonely anymore and I always protected her well so nothing bad happened to her like it had happened to me, etc. Like I said, I do lots of things around me since I know I can’t be selfish about myself, although I’ve been through bad times. I try to think about other stuff that’s happened around me since that’s how I keep myself busy.

I admit now I may not be at peace with myself, but I know I will get through it. I just need to know how to control this thing more, because this thing always comes with a price since I will have really bad headaches until it makes my nose bleed. It’s been bad enough ever since I was little that I’ve always have nosebleeds, so I’m used to it. I know you guys meant well. It’s just that I guess I just need to deal with myself more. I know I can do it, but it will take time for me. I guess. Only time will tell.

Bless4Ever
Post 90

Werewolves88: It's me, how are you? I read these, and wow – what happened? I read the last couple of posts twice and it hit me: you feel you might lose yourself, this gift, if you are baptized? You have been through a great ordeal.

We all have in different levels. I had experienced the fear of losing this gift too in the past because it seemed like it was stronger as I was a child. One of my gifts is discernment" as well, and it helps me work with the inner soul of individuals.

I wanted to add something here on the Baptism issue if I may. anon194701 put it "baptism is not a magical ceremony of some sort. It is an outward sign of an inward commitment to God...” I agree it's not magical! Poof there it is!

You start a relationship with the most loving Father, friend and Saviour. Then you say, “Lord I want to follow you and accept your gift for your glory and yours alone.”

I am going to share another story with you. Relax. Take a deep breath. Read it slowly, thinking that I truly want to help you and that God is working here with both of us and others who will later join in. Again, relax sweetie.

I've never said this in public, but I believe its the right time. When I was born I was dying and according to the Catholic tradition, which my mom has always been, she had me baptized after I was removed from the incubator to prevent me from going to Hell. I don't remember that, any of it of course. I had many things happen to me as a child to where my mom kept me away from people altogether. But I wanted to say, when I was 15 years old, I got baptized again, through a Christian Church. I took the classes and I had so many things happen to me in my teen years I truly needed God. I was being abused and hurt, people avoided me because of untrue rumors. I never did drugs. The sun was actually hurting my eyes, and I needed glasses. I was happy because I was working with God, to take away my pain and worries. So I was a happy teenager, with extremely red eyes. Well, people commented no one can be that happy all the time -- common to being teenagers -- we hate everything. But I didn't. I was happy to be alive. I started using Visine to remove the redness and got prescribed sunglasses. Teenagers were ruthless than as they have been now. When I was avoided, I can actually see people talking about me. One day in high school I got up from my chair and said:"Look I don't do drugs. You want to check my arms, well here they are” and I rolled up my sleeves.

I had the social worker, teachers, friends and family worried because I was "too happy." But you know what werewolves88? The most beautiful day in my teen years was when I went to the beach, May 1984, with the church and decided I was moving forward with this. No one could have taken that amazing, wonderful feeling of peace and love that I received that day. My family did not support my decision because they were Catholic and stated you only need one baptism. I was called a hypocrite, a Pharisee, and they even knelt to me to ensure my humiliation.

I said, "Can't you guys be happy for me? I never criticized you. I accepted all of you as you are, but you can't accept me?” I went to bed that day knowing that no one was taking this happiness away from me.

My abilities did not go away! They became stronger and more controlled.

I was a walking time bomb. After the baptism, I felt that God wanted me to make this commitment. He wanted me to prove to Him I really wanted help and guidance. My abilities were better controlled as I was in peace with myself and God. It was awesome. The pastor and co-pastor prayed with me in the waters as the church prayed at the edge of the beach. I did not understand "my abilities"-- only I could see spirits, hear conversations and absorb emotions. I could also see right through people and know when things were going to happen.

After the baptism, things slowed down enough for me to learn to control them. Use them with the Lord. I could read people, usually people who needed help. I would ask people if they were okay and they confessed horror stories and I would always say: "If I were you, I would try this talk to God and ask Him what does He want you to do." Never said do this or do that! I made that clear.

When I was baptized, I was told that God would clean my dish and make it new. Wipe away my sins and work with me and love me and guide me. Clear things up for me. Since I wasn't getting it at home, and God was offering it to me, well yes, of course I took it. What did I have to lose?

Sweetie, I lost my dad and only I knew he was going to leave us. I saw it. It hurt because I finally met my real dad and now he's leaving me. I think about that, I was 28 years old. But I at least knew because I had the bad feeling. So of course I followed it and sure enough I got to see him before he passed. My gift allowed me to see him one last time. I became more thankful of the gift and even more faithful to the Lord.

We cannot control when bad things are to happen to people. It is not our fault, and we can't stop it. The Lord knows everything and only God can change the outcome. I trust the Lord and know that He's in control.

I agree with anon194701 on this: God would not give us something to frighten us. He's perfect and loving, and He would never want us to be in pain for something He gave us. You are a very smart young lady, with a good head on your shoulders and very aware of you surroundings. Would you like for us to help you use your abilities to where you will not feel fear? You are at the early stages. There's much to learn. You have faith in the Lord – a perfect start!

You have a bad feeling that someone is going to get hurt. When this feeling overpowers your train of thoughts, this is what I do. I say, “Lord, I feel this and that. Can you help me figure out who it is that's getting hurt? Do you need me to help? But let it not be my will but yours. Lord, I am here for you; use me. Tell me what can I do to make this reflect your love?”

I have said, “Lord I am antsy. I know something's going to happen soon. Please get me ready if it's someone from my family or a close friend.” I have even pleaded with the Lord by saying, “Please not someone I know. Please remove this anxiety so I can focus. Turn it into hope and wisdom and love.” I started to see my abilities more clearly, and I became more confident.

Werewolves88, I do not think anon194701, meant harm. I read the posts two times and I believe he/she is trying to say, be careful that it doesn't overpower you so much you cannot think clearly. It can cause confusing and fearful thoughts, to where you think you are going to lose it. Always try to focus on God, because He gave it to you for a reason, because He knows you can handle it! You are so smart -- if you can catch that! We can help! Be careful too, because the closer we get to God, the more Satan tries to derail us. Rebuke Satan always and tell him you serve God and God alone and he has no power over you. Your head will become a new world with amazing thoughts, intentions and good will for everyone who comes in contact with you.

I loved the guinea pig story, its something I have done with animals as well. You seem to have a lot of similar stories. It is so cool! You have an outstanding love for God's creations.

I think with a little guidance, prayer and God's love, you will be fine and in control very soon. I believe in you. Stay strong!

anon194886
Post 89

@werewolves88: I never judged you. Nowhere did I say you were bad, evil, lazy, uncharitable or anything else. And no, there's never anything wrong with asking for help. Ever. I believe I mentioned my advice was free, so take it for what it's worth. If it's completely worthless to you, then that's fine. I am not annoyed with you, I don't hate you or have any ill feelings toward you. And nothing you said was upsetting or annoying to me. I thought we were engaging in dialog, but if you don't care to do so, then I certainly will not force you to.

And you're right: we can all certainly get closer to God. I know I'm never as close to him as I'd like to be.

I still wish for you peace, blessings and all good things in your life.

werewolves88
Post 88

To anon194701: You want me to be in peace with myself after what happened to my dad in my dreams came true. Do you think anyone will be in peace knowing any night I could dream about someone I love and care for might be in danger and I can't help them since I'm far away from them or seeing someone asking for my help to help them when I don't know who they are or I see someone who in trouble somewhere and I don't know where they come from and all I could do is cry? Do you think it's easy to deal with? You tell me if it's easy. And I don't need your bible words because I know what the bible says and I don't need those word since those words can't help me with things I'm dealing with.

Do you think it's easy for me some nights where I wake up in shock and cry because I know someone in trouble and I can't help them? The reasons why I explain to you what I do is because you asked me to do some volunteer work or work in a soup kitchen, read to children at school, start a school supply drive – something that is focused entirely on someone else, and I don't get any credit for it. I told you about what I do and now you try to say I'm not in peace with myself. How can I be in peace with myself? The reasons why I post stuff on here is because I wanted to know if anyone is having the same things like I do and for help. Is it so wrong to do it? Asking help when I wanted a help or guide?

I've been reading bible ever since I was little and I even sleep with bible under my pillow and rosary bead necklace on my neck and wrap on my wrist. That’s how close I am to god. Before just because I lost touch with god guide doesn’t mean I forgot about him at all. For god's sake, save your bible words because I come from a Christian family and my late grandparents were strict Christian people and we always did church and charity work and went to church every Sunday and etc.

I don't know what's your deal with my problem that so annoyed you. If you can't stand with the things I post, just don't read my posts because I have lots of stuff to deal with and I will deal it my way. Maybe god wanted you to wait a few weeks to reply to me because he wanted to make you see that I am not the person you think I am. He may want you to listen to other people before you judge them and open your mind to how some people lives are.

I'm sorry if I may sound harsh but maybe both of us need to listen to god more. I know I am. Since I'm not tuning to the right god station right now. The reasons why I say I may sound crazy are because I know not a lot of people have been through what I've been through. That’s the only reason why I say that I'm not mentally sick. I'm a perfectly healthy, 23 year old girl living a normal life.

I understand what you mean that normal people been through the same things like I do, but do they have experiences where they sense some spirit and the spirit attacks them or where they see their dad in a bad car crash and it comes true or when they're upset, something happens around them, or when someone is lying to them, they can see right through them, or when they first meet a person, they can pick up straight away something about them? It may be something only they know and they know just by looking at them and not even talking to them. It's like reading books. Or random people will ask some question saying they are different from other people like they can sense it and lots more.

If normal people are dealing with the same things I'm dealing with, well I guess then I'm just a normal person then. If god wants to give me some peace, I won't reject him because if he wanted to be in peace with me I would love to since I fail to do it for myself.

anon194701
Post 87

@werewolves88: Whoa. I never said I ever thought you were a bad person, or that you never did anything for anyone. If you thought that's what I meant, I am sorry. It certainly wasn't what I meant. My point was that it's easy to get caught up in what's going on inside your head, and it certainly seems you are very concerned about yourself, simply from what you've said in previous posts.

I'm an animal lover too, and I've had guinea pigs. They're great little animals. I've nearly put myself in the poorhouse to pay the vet bills, so I know where you're coming from.

I've been judged by people. I've been mistreated. I've been hurt. But that's part of life. Even the people you call “normal” (your words) have been misunderstood, laughed at, judged, hurt, had bad things happen to them. Maybe they seem to have great, happy lives, but that's rarely the case. Look under the surface, and they have had bad things happen to them, too.

Because it's so easy to focus inward, I've found it helpful to help others. I'm glad you help others, also. Now, since we're being honest here, the fact that you made so many assumptions about what I thought about you and defended yourself in such great detail tells me very clearly that you're not happy. If you truly were at peace with yourself, you wouldn't feel the need to justify your every action.

You say God gave you this gift and he can take it whenever he wants to. That's actually not strictly the case. I mean, he obviously can, but he also never interferes with our free will. If you're determined to hold on to it, regardless of the cost to your inner peace, he's not going to rip it out of your life. That's not how he works.

And let me tell you something I know for a fact: a gift that gives you this much fear and anguish is not being used the way God wants it used. There is no doubt about that, whatsoever. Everything in the Bible says that any gift from God is a good and perfect gift, and also is designed to help us serve him. Any gift comes from him does not create fear, because he has not given us a spirit of fear, but of a sound mind.

In case you've never run across this in the Bible, let me tell you how it describes Satan: he is a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. When he lies, he speaks his native language, because he is a liar and the father of lies. He is the author of confusion, fear, spiritual darkness, strife, bitterness, envy, deceit-- you name it.

We may have a God-given gift, but we may use it in ways he never intended, and may even allow, all unknowingly, Satan to use this gift. It's not demonic possession, but it is oppression. It's like sex. Sex is a beautiful, God-given gift, but people use it every day for the most evil purposes. I'm not saying you're evil, either. I'm saying this gift is obviously causing you severe mental anguish. You've said it yourself in your posts. You said you wondered if you were going crazy, if something was wrong with you.

And something else: baptism is not a magical ceremony of some sort. It is an outward sign of an inward commitment to God. You should not be baptized if you haven't committed your life to God. I don't know whether you have or not. I hope you have. Baptism doesn't cause some sort of instantaneous spiritual transformation. It is the outward evidence that the change has already occurred. It's a holy sacrament, signifying a commitment to God. If you're not ready for it, then by all means, hold off on it. Don't do it now.

Look, you wouldn't have posted what you've posted here if you weren't worried about yourself. People who are at peace with themselves don't post what you've posted. They just don't. And even if you have a gift that isn't always easy to deal with, there's always a sense of peace and serenity about it. You know you're doing what you're supposed to be doing, even if it isn't easy, and there is peace in that. You need peace in your life. Peace comes from giving the things that cause you anguish to God. It has to be an act of your free will, because as I said, he's not going to rip it away. I keep feeling the nudging of the Holy Spirit saying, “Tell her she needs my peace – the peace only I can give.” You want peace and a gift that is a blessing? Give it wholly to God. Give yourself wholly to God. It is so worth it. Peace, peace, blessed peace. Grace and peace to you.

werewolves88
Post 86

To anon194540: Thanks for replying back and thanks for the advice. Let me be honest about something: do you honestly think I don’t do any charity work to help the needy or do you think I don’t do any volunteer work to help people? Do you honestly think I'm one of this young ones who only spends time at home and let my parents or partner support me. Well to be honest, I'm not that type of person, because I do charity work. I donate some of my stuff to charity every few months, I help the church sell some stuff during some special days, although I don’t go to church anymore. I prefer to stop myself. Maybe people are right. Maybe I do have a demon in me. Maybe that’s why things seem to happen when I'm upset. To be honest, even my parents think I have something inside of me that's controlling me, which is funny, but I deal with it since I am who I am and I don’t need anyone to tell me who I am. Just sometimes I need help and guidance from people who are like me to learn how to deal with this thing.

I would like to go to church again if someone was willing to go with me, but the thing is with my new family, no ones wants to go to church because something happened in the past where the church people destroyed their beliefs. All my life I've been going to church. Only these past years I haven't been. I want to be baptized, but I'm scared what it might do to me. Yes, maybe you're right about me wanting my gift to stay but if God takes it he can, since I don't want to see anymore of people I care about might die or have something wrong with them. Plus God gave this gift to me and he can take it anytime he wants without me being baptized or not. I've known about this fact for a long time, but the reason why I'm scared to lose it is because it has helped me in a lot of ways that no one could understand at all.

I have been through a hard time ever since I was little. I've been accused of something I'm not. I've been judged. I've been mistreated by some people, etc. My mom always told me to be strong and don't listen to those types of people because I am who I am.

As long as I know I'm good person from inside and I'm honest in what things I'm doing, either working or helping people in need then I will always have a good karma on me. Yes I have strong belief in karma. If someone does bad things, they will get bad karma and if someone does good things they will have a good karma, so that's how I live my everyday normal life.

I'm sorry if seem to be annoying but this is who I am. If no one likes it I don't care, because no one knows me better then I am. Plus I've even done volunteer work to help at a preschool before, when I was not working. After I started working, I only focus on my work and everyday life. It's just that sometimes I have this urge deep inside of me that I can't help it. I even have a guinea pig I saved from one guy who wanted to use it as his snake food and mind you, I wasn't allowed to have a pet. I was there because I normally go to that pet shop to play with the puppies and cats. So when I heard what the guy was going to do I quickly bought her since the guy only wanted female guinea pigs. Luckily she was the only one, so I bought her and explained to my family about it. Do you know what I found about after I have her? I found out I was badly allergic to her fur and hay I never knew these things before, since I knew I was healthy person, so I was shocked to find out about it. I still kept her although she makes me sneeze, itch, my eyes watery, etc. My family members say I should give her away to a good home, but I told them no since I saved her life and I will keep her since I gave her a home and love and food and I'm not going to take that away from her and let her think that I give her away because I don't care or love her.

Yes, I'm a big animal lover. I even joined green peace, animals rights, rspca, etc. So yeah do I sound like a person who only cares about myself and only wanted credit for myself and don't care about things around me or others around me? I'll let you be the judge.

I've been told I'm crazy for keeping my guinea pig when she was only going to make me sick. Well, I don't care. I trade myself for her then seeing her die. I'm not saying I'm a goody goody two shoes type of person but this is who I am, so if anyone wanted to judge me I don't care about it because I know deep down inside of me I'm a good person.

I even help people with their problems a lot, but after I help them they always forget about me and I don't have a problem with that since my job is to help them not to gain something back. Thank you for willing to pray for me. I'm glad to hear that but I'm fine just the way I am.

anon194540
Post 85

@werewolves88: I've read all your posts, and the replies. I don't think you're crazy.

I don't know if I was born with a caul, but I can tell you I've always been extremely intuitive, something of a loner, and one of my gifts from the Holy Spirit is discernment. It's not the easiest gift to have, and sometimes my "funny feelings" are downright inconvenient, but that's one of the ones I was given, and it's mine to use.

I don't necessarily think you're demon-possessed, but I do think that, if being in church frightens you, or you feel you might lose your gift if you're baptized, then something is seriously wrong. I think the conflict you're feeling is the Holy Spirit dealing with you about the place you've given this gift in your life.

Now, I may be way off base here, and I'm certainly willing to admit that possibility, but I have a strong feeling that you've given this gift entirely too much inappropriate prominence in your life. You've worshiped the gift, rather than the God who gave it to you, and when you start doing that, you start becoming susceptible to ungodly influences. Doesn't mean you're possessed. Means you're listening to the wrong radio station, so to speak.

I say I suspect you've "worshiped the gift" because you are so distressed when people don't listen to you. Now I realize, part of the distress is because you're attempting to help someone avoid something bad, but there's a self-serving element there, too, I feel strongly. I can't shake the feeling that you have allowed this gift to define you, rather than you managing it. We should not become what we are given. We should shape what we are given into what is pleasing to God.

Rather than using the gift in that way, and being a servant of God, I feel you have styled yourself as the lonely prophetess, the voice crying in the wilderness, the lone voice of prophecy, but with emphasis on the gift, not on the Giver.

In the Bible, the Old Testament prophets were servants *first,* prophets second. Always. Some of them, like Jeremiah, suffered for their prophetic words, but they were serving God, not themselves.

It's always a temptation to serve oneself first with this kind of gift, and therein, I think, lies the root of your current conflict. Give your gift back to God, and allow Him to make of it what is pleasing to Him. If He takes it back, that's O.K. It doesn't make you less of a person. It makes you willing to become what He wants you to be.

I have no doubt there will be an inward struggle if you say, "All right, God. Here's my gift. Make of it what You will." Satan never wants to relinquish any hold he has on any part of our lives. It's a spiritual battle. Ephesians 6:12 says, "For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world-rulers of this darkness, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in heavenly places" (ASV). Any time you take back part of your life and say, "Satan, you can't have this. It belongs to God now," there is going to be a struggle. However, the end result of this kind of struggle, once you've given it to God, is peace. Imagine having peace in your heart! You can.

You can have a peace and serenity in your life when you realize you don't own this gift-- that God owns it and it's His to control. There is so much peace in giving up control of something and leaving it to God. Is it scary? Sure. Is it worth it? Absolutely.

I also strongly feel you need to do something to take your mind off yourself. Perhaps volunteer somewhere. Work in a soup kitchen, read to children at school, start a school supply drive--something that is focused entirely on someone else, and that you may never get credit for doing. When you do things that take you out of yourself, I've found, your perspective on your life changes dramatically.

Advice is free, so take this as you will. But I've felt that prodding that I know is the Holy Spirit, for several weeks to reply to you, and felt this was the opportune time.

God bless you and I'll be praying for you.

werewolves88
Post 84

Sorry for the late reply. I’ve been away for a while. Thanks for your concern Bless4Ever.

Well, to be honest I am scared -- scared of losing myself, scared to know that I can’t control my emotions. Since I’ve been feeling really emotional lately and I don’t know why, like there’s something inside of me and I can’t figure it out. To be honest, I used to go to church a lot when I was young, but every time I go to church I always feel something inside of me being pulled from deep within and I can feel it and the shape of it, is the shape of the cross. I know it sounds weird but this is the honest truth and it scared me every time it happened. I told my mom and she says that it is a sign from God, but I don’t know if that is true or not.

After that, I stopped going to church because it scared me and I do think about being baptized, but I’m worry if I did get it, will the thing that I have now suddenly go away? I can’t have it go away because that will mean half of who I am is gone and I’m not myself anymore. I don’t want it to happen. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Plus, every time I’m upset, things keep on happening. Sometimes, like lights bulb seem to when dim or worse even happens. I make the electricity cut out for a few seconds before and it comes back but nothing in the house changes. It seem like nothing had happened. They work just the same. We don’t have to reset the timer on the clock, fridge, stove, microwave, etc.

They did call the electrician men to look at the fuses and they say there’s nothing wrong with the main fuse and everything works fine so they don’t know how it could happen.

The people I mention are my family members, but after that, my husband pulled me aside and asked me if it was me and I told him it’s not me and he says weird things seem to happen when I’m really upset, but I don’t even know how I do it. I was really confused. I don’t know what to do anymore and I do have an IM screen name and I would love to talk to someone who is like me, since normal people are only going to think I’m crazy or possessed by a demon.

Bless4Ever
Post 82

@anon193189: I read this in a forum. I am currently looking for it, since it’s been months now, they are under “older posts” and the fact that I have read hundreds of posts and write down the quotes, I have to read it all over again. It’s time consuming, but I’m looking for it. But this is what I read. I live in Louisiana and have been told “they (cauls) are gathering here” is something, because I starting visiting Louisiana and now have found it to be my home. But I do not know where or when.

Lately it seems like I have to filter or thread through what is put up on the internet. Many of us feel lost, uninterested and just too busy to pursue this. It hurts to learn that such a rare magnificent gift is put to waste. I am asking the Lord to help me find you -- more of you. Hopefully I can find the others and learn what they believe their purpose is. You see we all have a puzzle piece, and together we can see the clear picture. Without us together, we are just that -- a puzzle piece. The Lord may put us together to do His will some day soon. I say count me in! I always post to stay strong. There is strength in numbers. We are not evil. We are pillars to bring light where there is darkness. You are not alone.

Werewolves88: I feel you are in a lot of pain. Emotional, spiritual and psychological. I lived that! Sometimes I live it again in different levels. Emotional because you carry it every day and it frightens you. Spiritual, because you know you are different, we all are and we feel “alone” here in this world. Psychological, because you are searching for the answers that best fits you as a person.

You have a journey ahead of you. But you are very strong, sensitive and caring. You seek knowledge and direction. You have these “abilities” but are not sure who you are. If I may, I’d like to say this: there are many out there learning this now. You are not evil! You have not been baptized, but many have not been baptized. Follow your heart and talk to God, openly. Express your concerns, then listen. Put your mind at rest and let Him fill in the blanks. Stay quiet. Focused. Open your mind to the possibilities that we will never fit it, because this is not our home. Let the Lord direct you one step at a time to help you find the answers you seek. I’ll be here, Lord willing, and we’ll walk you through. The other cauls will pitch in.

As for all of you out there, if you have passed this stage, please help me help the others. Your input and experiences are always welcomed! I’ll check up on you soon! We are here for you!

anon193189
Post 81

WW88: You posted that you read forums where caulbearers are moving to LA. Where can I find this? I moved here three years ago, and had no idea. That would be wonderful.

Bless4Ever
Post 80

@werewolves88: Are you currently visiting a church that does baptism? It seems you are very concerned about this. If you do visit a church, have you considered it your home church, where you are comfortable with their teachings and requested the baptism there? Would you feel okay doing that? It is your decision and your parents made it your choice.

Another thing I wanted to share. When I was very young and through my teenage years, my abilities were at their strongest, it was a second nature and I have felt that I might be losing its strength and yes, I worry because its who we are. I had requested people to share emails so we can make it a little more personal. I do not want to lose myself either. But you are right: if we are surrounded by the others, it's the other "normal people" whom we are living with and have become closer to instead of others like us. We will eventually lose it like many others. That's a shame because it's a wonderful gift bestowed upon us and when you have become one with it, it's amazing.

Werewolves 88, do not lose yourself in this world. It not ours, you are not crazy, you are curious and are wondering what the whole purpose to this birth is. Many of us have wondered why. I trust that this is from God. Therefore, things will be revealed in due time. I too, have become impatient, especially since all my life I have felt this way and finally finding others is wonderful sign of not being alone. I felt God dropped me off here to help others not lose hope. I wish there was a way we could instant message each other. Do you have an IM screen name?

I was informed that many caulbearers are gathering in Louisiana. I have read forums where they state they lived in Louisiana so it's confirmed. I am hoping to make a trip their some time in the future to see if indeed I can search for the others. I am trying but have come up a little unsuccessful.

I claim victory for I have found you and the others who are here reading these post anonymously. Stay strong! I'll check up on you later!

werewolves88
Post 79

Thanks for the advice anon190594 and Bless4Ever. Sorry to hear about your daughter’s friend and boyfriend. Hope they’ll be ok though, and not badly injured.

The thing is, I’ve never been baptized because the way I was born my parents think it’s a sign and they think I should make up my own mind what religion I want to be in. I know there is a God but not sure if he is with me because I don't even know if I have guardian angel like everyone does. That's why I always think the only thing that wanted to be with me or around me are demons and devils, and the reasons why I wanted to go to get a psychic reading are I just wanted to know more about myself. because I feel so alone sometimes and dealing with stuff that normal people don't understand at all.

At times I worry that I might lose myself and can’t find who I am then I scared that the things that I born with will gone just by being with normal people who basically won’t know anything about us and what we see, feel, sense, dream or hear. Sometimes I think that maybe I’m imagining this type of stuff that happens around me. To be honest, I even wanted to join a coven too, so that maybe there's a chance that they might know more about being born this way, but I guess I'm still scared that they might think I'm crazy or weird.

I met this one lady who owns a shop that sold wicca and spiritual stuff. She give me a number of her cousin’s coven but I haven't called them yet, because deep down inside of me, I'm just not sure that I should join them. I wish there was someone who was born with a caul who lived not far from me because she/he might know what I mean because she/he might experience some things too that she/he might wanted to know and not be alone in finding about it.

There’s nothing much worse than knowing you’re different and can’t fit in, although you wish you could fit in like those normal people do and have lots of friends.

But I know I can’t change myself and pretending to be someone that I'm not. Since, even though it hurts me sometimes knowing I can’t fit in, not having many friends or no friends at all, always alone thinking and wondering is there is more to life than this. Because ever since I was little I've always been alone and quiet. I’m not a loud type of person until now. I always tried to make people happy but then again I always think to myself: am I happy? I think I am, but at same time I don't think I am. I just not sure.

I remember quite well when my sister was born I was really happy knowing that I wasn’t going to be lonely or alone anymore and I was really thankful for that. It’s just I feel like she completed me. I don't know why, but I always thought she was my soul sister. She just feels the loneliness in me but I guess part of me still wanted an answer about why I was born this way and what I am. That's why, when I first found this site, I was hoping for an answer for this thing because I'm confused now. I can’t talk about this stuff to anyone else or they might think I'm crazy and only you guys know and can understand what I'm going through. Thank you for being here and reading my comments.

Bless4Ever
Post 78

@werewolves88: I agree with anon190594 on the sense of staying away from psychics. You do have all the power within you. What is your question/s? Let us help you.

The other day, we had a thunderstorm warning, and my daughter insisted on taking her friend home. I opposed it, since I had a bad feeling. Something didn't feel right. My daughter's friend's older sister and boyfriend came to pick her up, only to inform me shortly after that they (boyfriend, sister and friend of my daughter) were in a car accident. They hit a pole. It was still dangerous out there. The visibility was poor. These kids had a car accident and I had requested their mom to pick her up, since she is an experienced driver. Trust in your instincts, premonitions and heart. The Lord is there. Let Him guide you. So what are your questions?

anon190594
Post 77

stay away from fortune tellers. they are psychic vampires. You have all the power and more. Just speak to Jesus about it, and you will hear the answer or he will show you the answers.

werewolves88
Post 76

Thank you for making me feel better Bless4Ever. I was feeling like I'm going to go crazy because the feeling was really strong and I thought I was losing my mind. Well the weird thing is that one of the girls I'm working with was telling me and showing me a picture that she was in a car crash right on the day I was feeling weird and scared like something was going to happen. The good thing is the car was really badly damage and she got out from the car without being badly hurt just bruised. People were wondering how she could survive that and when she told me about it I was in shock, because she is not the only one who survived a really bad car accident before, since my dad was the same too. I didn't have to wait for my mom to tell me what happen since I saw it in my dreams. That's when I realized that something was wrong with me because I do have dreams where sometimes it come true but when I had the dreams about my dad in a car crash and it came true twice, that's when I realized really well that something was wrong with me but I didn't know what.

Anyway, back to my main story which is about the girl that I work with. I did kind of make her mad her the day before because she like to makes people do her job while she makes all kind of excuses to get away from doing any job and I talked about her to my family and the day after that I had the scared feeling like something happened but nothing was going to happen. I sort of was feeling guilty, partly because my family members always say that when I'm really upset about someone or something, sometimes things happen.

I do realize it a bit but I always try to deny it since it might just be coincidence when things like that happen sometimes. I just don't know anymore. I'm thinking of going to a psychic to get a reading about myself, because I really need an answer to my question, although people always says that sometimes you won't just like what the answer's going to be and by that time it's too late to change your mind or try to forget about it because curiosity killed the cat, and I'm the cat who wants an answer for all the things that happening around me.

I know I won't get much or I might get worse news like saying nothing special about me and all the things that are happening around me are just mind tricks and that's what scares me the most because I know this is not my mind trick this is really happening and I don't want to lose that part of me because if I lost it I will be incomplete. I always try to be strong since my mom always tells me to be strong in facing life that lies ahead. I hope one day there will be an answer for my question.

Bless4Ever
Post 75

@werewolves88: It is interesting that you would refer to feeling anxiety and fear towards something that you feel is going to happen, and know that nothing is happening. I want to share the same experience you are having is happening to me. I have been feeling more anxiety than usual. I continuously feel anxious but lately I wake up feeling I should be helping someone in trouble. I have been having childhood fears -- like ending up alone with no friends and no one to play with me. Like no one really understands me and why try explaining how I feel; does it even matter to anyone but me?

I have been attaching and giving my thoughts and feelings to the Lord. I just recently felt sadness and told an old friend how I feel about my existence here in this world. She said my friendship meant the world to her and she admires my strength. I said, "Really?", and she said her parents were strict and she basically saw the world through my eyes.

Then I spoke to another friend and she said I have been like an icon of strength for her brother, he even carries my picture in his wallet and cries when he receives my letters, because I bring him courage and strength to fight his illness. She said I don't know how much I mean to them because her brother wants to be like me: strong and brave. This brought tears to my eyes. I guess my existence made a difference in more than one life, and that is good enough for me. Than I realized that when I speak to people and I ask, "How are you doing?" they break down and confess many things to me. I listen carefully and say Thank God for bringing me here to you and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Let me help you find it.

I have felt people are more deceitful than ever. I feel this world is in need of God's love, and we need help. We cauls can help but there's too much pain. I know children stare at me and don't know what to make of me. I wave gently and even infants stare at me and smile. It's amazing to feel such purity from these gentle souls.

The Lord brought us here for others to see love, courage and strength. We are strong and we become more aware of others weakness by just studying their body language, sensing them and sometimes looking into their eyes. I share my energy and strength with those in need without needed to be asked. Sometimes my friend says she needs a hug, but she doesn't know that I absorb some of her pain while gently giving her spiritual strength and energy to continue in her journey.

I always believed that there's strength in numbers and I have asked for ideas. However, maybe it is too soon or just something that's not happening We have so much to share and learn from one another. We are different and we know it and every day that goes by we see it more.

I cannot surround myself with negative energy/people -- it's suppose to balance it -- you don't command; you need to help guide it. I love what I do, and if I could change anything about my life, it would have been to start helping people sooner instead of feeling like an outcast and cry myself to sleep because I was just afraid of what I saw and felt as a child. I would never give up this gift. It's now who I am. I have learned to use it to read and help others. To feel an incredible closeness and respect towards God and in dept respect for Jesus who paid the price for us.

I have had experience with all kinds of people, children and nature itself. Most spiritual experiences came from children. I have felt responsible for many awkward moments, for I knew how I attracted people, but I had to go to school and learn like everyone else. But so many great experiences were given to me so that I may learn how humanity thinks and feels.

I keep thinking someone is going to come through my doors and take me away, hide me, protect me and it's a strange feeling, but it has also been part of my dream like puzzle pieces. I have learned to love and hate, I have learned to have money and have need, how it is to be a child and an adult. To be a daughter and have a daughter (love of a child). I have felt lost and returned to the path where I came from. Therefore, I feel I have learned the true meanings of life. I envy no one and when my time comes I will rejoice, for I will be going home.

Stay strong brothers and sisters. You are not alone.

werewolves88
Post 74

It's just weird how I seem to want to post a lot of stuff here. I guess you guys are the only people who could understand what I'm saying without being called weird or crazy when I talk about something that regular people don’t know. Anyway, today, I've been feeling a bit weird like something is not right and my whole body is feeling it. This has never happened before to me so I don’t know what it is. It just feels like something is going to happen when I know there’s nothing happen. To be honest, what I'm feeling is I feel scared. I don’t know why.

It's like today I went out to town and while I was walking on the bridge to the train station, I looked down below and I realize my fear of heights came back when I already got over it when I was about 8 years old. I had to stop for a minute to get over it. So I got myself all together and then I walked on as normal after that. But deep down inside of me I still feel the weird feeling around.

I don’t know why or what's wrong with me. Is it because I'm highly sensitive about things that happen around me? Or am I losing it? My family members say maybe I'm just nervous but why I should be nervous anyway? So I don’t really get it. I hope I'm not coming down with a nervous breakdown because I hear it can happen but I don’t think it's that, though.

werewolves88
Post 73

I agree with your opinion there Bless4Ever, and yes i am highly aware about the star child, indigo child and rainbow child.They do have their own traits and some of them do get misjudged like us who born with a caul. I've been doing research of my own too, for a while. I had to buy like a really sort of rare book just to get my hands on information about children who were born with cauls. I got two that talked about cauls and most of them said that:

1) In medieval days they say babies born with cauls were a lot stronger and healthier than most.They had better chances of surviving.

2)The caul was also thought to have special powers, for example, to protect against black magic, to defend the harvest and to ensure fertility.

3)Protect the bearer from drowning (most common one).

4)The caulbearer could prophesy the future, especially through dreams.

5)Twins born with a caul would be believed to be protected by a guardian angel throughout life.

6)In iceland the baby born with caul was said to have a fairy companion know as "fylgiar" who would serve it throughout life, even foretelling its death and traveling with it to Valhallah, home of the dead.

But all of this changed when the vampire myth came along where they say that babies born with cauls might became vampires.The caul would be removed immediately in case the baby tried to eat it and instead of keeping the caul as valuable talisman, the caul would be destroyed as quickly as possible.

That's the only thing i could find out now but i hope to find more information about this since some of the things Bless4Ever already said came out so if anyone has any more information about this, hope you guys will try to share it with us here.

Bless4Ever
Post 72

I continuously do research. I have learned also that some people believe they can be star children, indigo children or rainbow children. It is believed that from 1990-2010, there were children born with abilities as well to help the caulbearers in their missions.

The point is that there are others like us, children and young adults to help those born 40-50 years ago (largest batch of cauls) and even further before that. We cannot dismiss the fact that people are indeed different. However, if this is true then we truly are not alone. We can help one another through prayer and support. I consistently am praying and helping people find their way, to become good people and to look into their hearts and find their true calling. Helping one another with love, patience and wisdom.

Does anyone have different opinions? I am open to other opinions and different points of view, so please comment. God bless you all!

werewolves88
Post 71

To be honest, ever since I was little, I could never fit in with anyone or place I am at. I always feel like something’s wrong with me. I tried to be like other kids, have friends, have sleep overs, etc., but I could never do those types of things because no matter how I tried to force myself to fit it, I just knew I can’t. It’s like I’m cursed. Then when I went to high school, it got a lot harder because I became a more alone type of person. I don’t have many friends and I can read people’s body language just by looking at them or sometimes I could just feel how someone feels when they’re around me.

It’s like when someone gets really upset, I seem to catch on to that person’s feelings. It’s really hard. I never understand why that happens. I’ve been labeled as highly sensitive person a lot.

I really do try to fit in, but I just can’t. Every time I want to fit in, it just never works. I know deep down inside of me that’s not who I am. I can’t go out and party like some of the girls I know, or even go to town and spend all the money that parents will give, etc. I always think I’m cursed because everything just seems different to me. People seem to always know I’m different and sometimes they will ask where am I come from or say I don’t look like local people around, etc. I even get people who say that I always look different from other girls because the way I put myself out, meaning the clothes I wear, how I act and how I present myself is totally different form other girls and people always say I’m different. Something about me is just different from other girls around.

Some of my friends, so-called friends (meaning backstabbers) are actually friends with me because people seem to be attracted to me for weird reasons. I don’t even know why it happens, but I always know they will end up hurting me anyway, but I ignore that. But I was right: they do end up hurting me and it makes me feel worse about myself because it’s bad enough I look different and I can’t fit it but knowing someone could say they want to be my friend but ends up trying to stab me in the back just makes it worse. So I didn’t make friends with people much after that because it hurt me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been called an empathetic, highly sensitive person, nice, quiet, saint, life saver, very understanding who always tries to be there for everyone and will always try to lend a helping hand. I don’t know why anyone says that to me.

I don’t think I’m that. I always think I’m a bad person and cursed. Even my family and relatives say I should have been born in a different time because they always know I’ve always been an oddball type of kid when I was growing up until now. But I always have these strange dreams where I see myself in a different era and I always have this same looking guy always around with me all the time. No matter what time of year it is, he will always be there. I even see myself die a lot of times and there he will be kneeling on my grave. He always looks sad, I just wish I could tell him to not be sad. I don’t know who he is to me. Is it sort of like seeing myself in a past life, because I don’t really understand what it supposed to mean.

The weird part is I always have this strong feeling about England, that I feel like I have something there that I wanted to find but I don’t know what it is or maybe because my grandpa is an Englishman. Maybe that’s why I have strong feelings about England. I’m not sure anymore.

And they say being born with a caul sort of runs in families, but the weird part is none of my mother’s or my dad’s family members were born like that besides my cousin being born premature and her mom having a c-section.

Since I never really knew my English grandpa because of World War II and he passed away when my grandma had my dad so my grandma married another guy few years after that. So I don’t really know who my real grandpa’s side is. I guess I always have questions about everything and I judge myself really hard too.

But now, I’m start to accept that I will never be like anyone else and I will never fit in and the only thing I can do is just be myself. If anyone doesn’t like how I am, well I can’t help them with it because this is just how I am. Every time I listen to celtic songs it seems to be I’m longing to belong to that time and it just seem to makes me happy and peaceful. I don’t know why, but I could see how happy people dancing to the music and how people in that time seem to be more polite. There’s a lot of things I wish I could understand but I guess things just don’t work like that.

Bless4Ever
Post 70

I have seen so many things with these eyes. It is true, but I do not know if you all share the same sentiment. There is something about us, something short of being normal. We cannot change it for it comes from within. We feel it. It can be so very hard for many to focus in life when we feel excluded. None of us have mentioned asking for this, so this was given to us. Given to us by Whom? Its origins are not evil, therefore we are not evil. In the deepest of our hearts it hurts to be deceived and lied to. We have tried to fit in but we cannot. Some have seen more things than others, it does not mean that you do not share the same capabilities.

This world does not accept us. We feel lonely! It is not that we are alone, we just feel alone because we have not found others like us. This world is full of deception and evil and wrong doers. They will not accept us because we stand against what they represent. It is easier said than done to say stay strong. I am strong. What guides me comes from within. I have a strong spirit. I am a spirit creature and so are you, and that is why we do not belong; this is not our realm. It is not our home. That is why we feel misplaced.

I write this to you to bring hope that you will stay strong for we will go home, and hence, feel our purpose has been fulfilled. I know not any one of you, but I know that I will never fit in. I look up to the heavens and feel tranquil and at peace. If this is so, this may be a glimpse of our origins. I have read in a caul website that we are considered travelers.

To you my sisters and brothers, find out what guides you, and where is your strongest point. Look into your heart and find the answers that you seek. I have found the answers but I feel that there is fear in you. I do not fear what can kill man and not the soul. I am very spiritual and I will continue to pray for you and the others. Stay strong and support each other.

Bless4Ever
Post 69

@werewolves 88: Today I analyze everything in my life and wonder if some experiences were actually worth the experimentation. I thought that people lived their lives as I did, to learn and live and be happy. However, I read posts from other forums and realized that "we" do make a difference in people's lives. We do not see it right away, but we do and sometimes people that know us actually feel our true beings.

I asked my spouse, “Do you fear me? He responded, "No." “Why are you with me?” I asked him one day. He responded, “Because I love you and I feel I need to protect you.” I said, "What do you mean you feel you need to protect me?” He responded gently and said, "Ever since I met you I felt I needed to care for you."

I once told a person not to fall in love with me, shortly after we met. I told this person that I tend to draw/pull people and in and they end up getting hurt. I told this person, “Please! I do not want to hurt you. People are getting hurt because they are feeling for me” and I although I knew it was me I still warned them against it. I said please, do not touch me! I walked through life avoiding physical contact. I felt all kinds of weird feelings that I had absorbed and my persona was uncomfortable. Many times I felt that people were falling in love with me and they were too uncomfortable to tell me. Not that telling me made a difference, because I already knew, but I could not comply. I avoided them because I did not want to hurt them and I ended up hurting them anyhow. I apologized so many times, but I can feel the disappointment.

People would say to me, "You're not from around here are you?","You don't talk like us" and "You're so smart to be so young." I got that a lot. Sometimes I feel I try so hard to gain the acceptance of my family, but I do not feel love from many of them. Before I would cry and just say, "did I day something to offend you?", "Did I not do as you asked?". I communicate with only a couple of my immediate family. Sometimes I feel it with my mom who I love so dearly. It can feel like it is too much to bear. It can bring tears to my eyes a lot. Why is humanity so selfish, self-centered and evil? Than the voice, my Lord, tells me "Humanity is worth saving, there is goodness in them." It always relaxes me.

Today, I cannot watch the news. I cannot remove the images of the disasters, people crying, seeing people hurt. It is all bad news in my head. I pray for those I see on TV and I don't even know them. I think that is one of our goals, to be light in times of darkness and to help those in need and develop our abilities to become who we are meant to be.

I have some real bizarre, incredible, awkward and amazing stories to tell, but I wonder if the world is actually ready.

werewolves88
Post 68

@Bless4Ever: Thanks for the information. It's really good to know how different cultures look at us, although it's sad at the same time that people seem to look at us like we are evil when we are not. We're just different.

No one will understand this beside ourselves. I'm really glad I found this site before, because now I know I'm not alone anymore in finding out the mystery of being born this way. And you're right about someone who was born in a sac vs. someone who was born with the veil, because technically, both of those births are rare and both are special. No one can say person who was born the other way will be more special and gifted because it all depends on the person.

I'm not going to say I'm special or anything because I used to think I was cursed and I was bad, because lots of things happened to me when I was young and I've been called lots of names too, but it's all past now. I know how to deal with it better now.

All I could do is be myself and know that if someone doesn't like me for being who I am there's nothing I can do about it, so this is not competition for those two births because we were born that way for a reason, and someday we might know what the reason is, or we might not know, but I guess it's just a mystery we can't solve.

werewolves88
Post 67

I mean, I can know when something bad or good is going to happen not I can't, sorry, and the other day when I was out in town, something happened and I was really upset and for some odd reason, I felt like someone was touching me and holding my arms really gently. It made me look and I saw no one, but the odd thing is I felt less upset after that.

I sometimes hear someone call my name but there's no one there around me. Does it even happen to anyone here? I think people need to know about me that I was born in a christian family but I have never been baptized because my parents says they want me to choose my own religion because of the way I was born and they think it was some sort of sign.

When I was little, I'd do something that was weird sometimes and I experienced that happening. It still makes my dad wonder and guess and trying to figure out how I can do the things I did. It's weird sometimes. I seem to scare people around me because I can guess something and they try to lie and hide and cover it and I will say just spit it out, and they end up saying the truth and they will wonder how I could know. I guess I'm just weird. To be honest, I like being weird and different but I get easily hurt when people lie to me. Anyway, I hope someone here has had some experiences like me. I would really love to hear it.

werewolves88
Post 66

Well, it's me again. I'm just wondering if any of you here can relate to this. Someone said that when I'm really upset, sometimes something happen and I will say it wasn't me and etc., but it does makes me think about it, but I'm still not sure.

Has anyone here ever been visited by someone at night where you can't move your body and can't even open your eyes but you know you're awake and you can hear clearly what the person is saying? I must admit when I was little I used to sleepwalk and sometimes was talking in my dreams. I don't know why it happened. I even laughed while sleeping, too, and it used to freak my grandparents and my parents a lot. I'm not sure why those things happen, but I don't sleepwalk anymore because my mom got really freaked out before and she just shook me really hard because I felt it hurt when I woke and quickly ran to my bed, feeling weird and after that it stopped She always asked me why I kept doing that and I told her I don't mean to do it and I wasn't even aware I was doing it.

So my dad always comforted my mom when she freaked out about it because I used to sleepwalk a lot before, and even sometimes I would wake up and realize I was in front of the bedroom door instead of sleeping on my bed.

I'm a loner and don't have many friends but for some odd reason, people seem to be drawn to me and tell me their problems and stuff that is personal to them, and when it happens I will try my best to comfort them. At some times, some people just don't like me for no reason. I don't know why. I don't even know them and never met them, but they just don't like me because they say I'm different.

I can know when bad things are going to happen, but I have no control over when it is going happen or where it will happen because it will happen whenever it wants tom and all I can do is just hope those bad things will go away, but sometimes it will linger for few days, so during those days I will try to be careful and more alert just in case.

Anyway, if anyone has had the same experiences like me, hope you guys can share.

Bless4Ever
Post 65

Here is something I would like to share. I have learned that in this life and life form people are indeed different. I believed that all people were good because they were created by God. As I do in believe in God. My mom consistently told me to "open your eyes please" that not all people are good. I fought it for years, for I saw goodness where no one else did and I stuck to what I believed in. As the years went by I noticed people would stare at me as I walked by. I was not a "social butterfly" but I said hi here and there. Sometimes I even had people say things, whispers (that I heard) - they said negative things. But it is not what came out of their mouths that bothered me; it was what I saw in their hearts and souls. So I learned that there was evil in peoples' hearts because I saw it, felt it and steered away from it.

I learned not to judge people based on appearances because of how I was being judged unjustly. I also tried to prevent abuse from happening as I felt it in the heart of a neighbor towards a child. I tried to speak to the parent, I became friends- learned their character and how to approach them and then I approached her and sure enough I got removed from the picture in terms of friendship, only to later hear that it happened for real. These feelings hunt me and frighten me. I dislike saying "I tried to warn you", but I cannot walk away from it either.

I have realized that I am no longer as patient as I used to be. I have become more aware and alert of my surroundings. I go outside and feel the sun is energizing me - the air is cleaning me, it is a weird thing to say but it is feeling it that is amazing.

I feel I can read what's on people minds, and sometimes it's actually funny and sometimes its not. I have been asked if I can read minds. I don't think its actually "reading minds," though. I think it's perception.

Now vibes: those are so real and predictable I trust in them with every ounce of strength I have. I am learning now that people have been looking for me for years to say "thanks for being there for me". I write back and say I'm glad I can help, thank God too. But I owe it all to the Lord. He has been working in me since I can remember. I do not feel this is evil as I was told. I am different, I know it. I feel, see it, sense it and lived it. Loneliness is just part of staying away from that that makes me uncomfortable and not actually sharing with others like me in a physical setting. But I am not alone and neither are you.

I have had close encounters with drowning. Obviously, I did not drown, but all the possibilities were there. My mom would say the ocean claims a life every day. So she never took us to the ocean, she did not want one of us to be the one.

One day, I ventured into the waters. I can smell it and I felt it was luring me in. So in I went as deep as I could, I did not want to fear the waters based on superstition. I knew I did not learn to swim and I have seen how the waters have taken people in and under, but I did not want to fear something that calls me. I felt the ground give away with every wave and before I realized it I couldn't touch the bottom. I had gotten pulled in, now I remembered what my mom said. I jumped up when a wave came and it took me back to waist level and I walk out, someone who noticed I was in trouble and approached had asked if I was ok and told me it was a close call. I said I'm okay.

Later I had heard how this beach wasn't so popular because not only the waves are strong, but there's rocks and you can get hurt badly.

On another occasion my mom was told of a stream near the home. She searched for it and asked me to help and I did. I did not know where it was I just followed my instincts and went straight to it. My mom asked me if I had seen it before, I said no. She said how did you know where to look? I didn't tell her I followed my instincts.

After she cleaned and marked the stream, she said again I went right by here and I couldn't see it, how is it that you knew? I said I just did. She looked at me weird. I told her here is where the ground is moist, where there's mud there's water; I just got lucky. She didn't have to put a marker. I can still find it. So I respect the things that have happened to me as one to grow on. My mom just smiled at me with a "smart-alec" look! I have many stories to tell but I'd like to hear yours.

anon180945
Post 64

@Anon180924: I'm so glad you responded. I was hoping that I would hear from someone tonight from this board. I can relate to you when you speak of “men of the cloth.” I have put my trust in two men that were pastors, but they were just sinners – whoremongers. So, I can relate. I'm glad it happened because I was awakened from that point on not to trust anybody who says they preach the word until they prove themselves but then I'm still cautious. Valuable lessons learned.

Last night my Direct TV went out, and they're coming out to fix it on tomorrow. Remember, I said that I was having problems with my new neighbor? Well, after meditating last night and today, I got clarity. I saw a statue of a cat like fixture in front of her door, more like to the side. But I had never noticed it before.

It so happened that last night when I was searing the computer about cats, I remember seeing something very familiar to that statue. Well, after researching today, it turns out that she worships the goddess of cats: bastet. She's a pagan and these cats are demons. I felt it but I needed conformation. Now, I have it. She started college in london England, and jas traveled since. Everything that that spirit of bast represents, is her. Now, I'm having to fight demons again. I cried to God this afternoon, and said why why why me? All the time, it's me.

I'm tired. But, this woman is preying on this young girl that lives next door. I heard her say that she wanted to mentor her. I'm afraid for the child, so somehow, I have to warn the mother but I do not know how to. The woman has been in the city longer than me so they're more familiar with her. How can I go to them and say what I just said?

I read where the spirit of bast wants more 'children'. You see, children aren't that familiar with Christ so if they are brought into darkness, more than likely this is where they will stay. I believe this happened to this woman years ago while attending college in the U.K.

I believe she did something to my Direct T.V. receiver, because I heard something in the back by my window last night and I turn on the light, stepped outside and she pretended like she was feeding the cats in the dark. I'm not sure though.

Well, there are only a few of us on earth, and we are the only ones who understand each other. I'm glad we're here.

anon180924
Post 63

@Bellmar, I read your story among many that you do have and hope one day you will share. Sharing what we feel is what fills the void. You mentioned your mom always being there for you in past tense. Let me tell you something you'll find comforting.

I told my mom once and she told me not to speak of it anymore or people would think I was crazy. She never told me of my birth. When I fought with my siblings, I kept thinking I was adopted. She knew I was struggling with this, yet never told me until a couple of months ago. After the shock, it all made sense.

I felt anger because many nights for many years I cried myself to sleep with no one to ever hold me and tell I was different. I am so glad you had your mother. At least she shared the burden with you until you came to maturity and understanding.

Doing everything on my own I became so much stronger and independent at 11. I became wise and counseled so many people. They came to me for advice, and although I was so young, they would admire my wisdom. Until today I am admired and I continue to learn and grow. The Lord has always been by my side caring, protecting and guiding me.

I confessed to the pastor of my church. I said I see things, hear things and see people. There is a voice that speaks to me and comforts me when I cry. A voice so sweet and tender so wise and loving. He told me Satan can be misleading me. I said but if it was Satan what does he have to gain? I have loved and counseled people? How was he to benefit.

One day the pastor told me he was attracted to me and told me to kiss him that we can ask for forgiveness and be forgiven. Than I remembered about what he said of who was misleading who and requested that upon him taking me home, I will not speak to anyone of this and so I did not until now.

I spoke to another pastor who said that evil uses anything to get us to turn against our beliefs. That we are not different and when we put ourselves separate from others it was wrong. I am very spiritual. I tell you this story because it conveys a message. I have been counseled by pastors and I have found that because they do not understand the level of spirituality we possess, that they are clueless as to who we are.

Our births were no coincidence. We emit light and spiritual strength. That is why we have no one to turn to but each other. I confess to no one but the Lord himself. I got offended when the pastor said I need to seek psychological christian counseling. No one knows me better than me. I can see spirits. So I am psycho because I saw the evil in people and he could not.

I was 13 years old and today I greet them both with respect because I understood that you work with what you got. We have each other, we need each other!

I hope I was able to let you see how high up the spiritual ladder I went only to be dropped by the people that I trusted. I started from scratch with no one to wipe my tears and even now as I remember how scared I became, I thought he is a Pastor he knows more than me, maybe I am losing it, maybe I was deceived by evil. I had tears in my eyes - but I grew stronger each day and realize that that voice speaking to me helped me throughout life and guides me today. Don't be afraid anymore. We are here for all of you if you need us. There is strength in numbers. Stay strong we'll all help!

bellmar
Post 62

thank you God for letting me find this site.

bellmar
Post 61

I was sitting here listening to the sound of rain, and decided to google 'what happens when you're born with a veil over your face,' and ended up here.

I'm so happy I found you all. I'm so happy. I thought I was the only one. For so many years, my life has been so different. Right now, I'm dealing with a demon spirit: my neighbor. She doesn't know what's possessing her, but I do. It's the same spirit that has been following me for years.

When I was a child I could see spirits. I would cry out loud and my mother was always there in a split second. She finally told me, after I described my grandmother lying in the casket. I was too afraid to look at grandma during the funeral. But grandma came to me a couple of months later and sat on the end of my mother's bed. I told my mother how her hair was fixed and the color of her dress and how it was made.

When I was about 12 years old, my mother told me that I was born with a veil over my face. I just looked at her because I had no idea of what she was talking about. She kept telling me this throughout the years, but for some reason I didn't want to know, but I knew.

Until this day, I'm afraid to sleep without a light being on. I've always been to afraid to speak to a spirit. I've seen many. My mother use to tell me to not be afraid and say to the spirits, "What in the name of Jesus do you want?"

I laughed, and said, "Mama, I don't want to know what they want. I want them to go away." I'm so afraid of spirits.

I prayed and ask God to stop letting me see spirits. I begged God. I've spoken to spirits though, but I didn't know they were a spirit until later. They were angels. I thought they were regular people, but they were not. I'm sure you all know what I mean.

My mother was my best friend. She was the only one who ever understood me. My family, I believe, treats me different. I'm finally asking God to just let me not pick up the phone to call them. I know they treat me different. It has been revealed. And when I question them, they are silent.

I was mistreated on my job for many years, and never knew why certain managers didn't like me. I hadn't done anything to them, especially the female managers. They made my life a living nightmare for 23 years.

I have always been blessed. I retired at 44. Just blessed. But then, before the blessings came, hell broke loose each and every time.

People have forsaken me. I'm beginning to not feel that feeling of needing a friend or wishing I had a friend like before.

I was reading all the posts here and I started to cry because I never knew about the water. I remember as a child about nine years old, my mother took me with her to my oldest sister's graduation in Daytona Beach. Fla. Well, my sister took me to the edge of the water but I ran into the water. She then grabbed me.

My mother spoke about that day for years. Even my sister brings it up now when she wants to say that I've always been strange. My mother was trying to tell me about the water, now I believe.

When I was about 21 years of age, I was invited to a pool party. I was thrown into the water but I came back up as if I knew how to swim. I do not know how to swim.

Now, I find myself living in New Orleans. I do not know why God has me here, but I'm feeling a feeling since I've read these post that He has me here so that the city will not be under water again. How weird does it sound? Not so weird to us at all. I do not know anyone here but I was brought here by God for a reason. I've moved a lot. Sometimes I feel I've moved to much. I know that I'm never alone. God is with us.

I'm glad I've found you all. Finally, I'm not alone anymore.

anon180598
Post 60

For some reason, I was led to this site. I was sitting here thinking about what my mother told me 'about being born with a veil over my face' after seeing things, and being just plain ol' different, and decided to type the subject into Google.

I'm tired of being this way, different. Often, I wonder if I'm cursed because I look at people, and I can see and feel so many things, that I tend to shun most folks -- leaving me alone.

There were many times that a big red flag went up but I was tired of being alone and allowed evil into my circle, but did I pay the price? Yes.

I'm so happy that it's not just me, and we're able to speak to one another.

Bless4Ever
Post 59

@werewolves88: I am now Bless4Ever. As you may have realized, I have been here before (trust your instincts and you'll know in your heart which posts were mine), and I'm losing track of the anon#'s, you may post direct to me now if you wish.

I pray for days and when I feel it's time to write I do so but only because spiritually it is the "best" time -- when I'm energized spiritually. But I do visit the site consistently.

Werewolves88: I have read so much on the internet and I don't get tired because I seek knowledge. Not because I don't know, but because if I learn what other people believe, I can help, and I know there are others out there that need us badly -- right now. From prayers, to chat to simply belonging.

Different cultures have different ideas and beliefs in respect to this subject. If you are religious you'll attribute it to God, if you are not, then you are seeking the truth that makes the most sense to you.

Here are the things that I have learned. I have taken time to put it in order according to the internet.

1) Born Caul: vampires, werewolves, psychic, ordained for greatness (rulers), messengers, sensitive beings.

1)Vampires = Vampiric ordained. The church (they didn't say which one) was involved in the deaths. These children are immortals. Their souls continue to go on, if their caul is preserved. People have said that we have a tendency to lure people towards us. Weird because sometimes I felt that people wouldn't leave me alone, yet I felt people avoided me and looked at me and were intimidated. We can turn into vampires after our death or werewolves and roam in animal form called the “good walkers“ to remove the evil spirits off the face of the earth. Keep that thought!

2) Witches/Warlocks/Werewolves: Those babies who were not killed at birth grew up and use their abilities and therefore were labeled “witches/warlocks/werewolves”. More witches than warlocks. Why? Because there are more females than males born this way. I am a female as you felt in your heart already. Do I feel like a witch? I wouldn't know '- what do witches feel like? What do they do? Do they predict? Keep that thought! Is this world so primitive that the only way to handle difference is to destroy it?

3) Travelers. I read in a web site that these children were actually travelers. They come from different places and galaxies. The fact that we don’t feel to belong is because we don’t. Sure I can see that I’m in a place where people do different things and therefore it feels off, but every day, all day, all my life? That’s not a feeling we make up. I don’t know of anyone who wants to feel lonely. I do not know of anyone who wants others to stare. In fact, how do you even explain what you see differently? Only you feel it inside in the deepest recesses of your heart. We can only mimic others to find comfort but in the end, we do feel lonely -- very confused and alone. Keep that thought!

4) This is a gift from God and we are chosen. This is from the older generation. The children grow up to read people and help people become better people. We can guide others. Because we can read them we know when and where there is evil. Truth be told, there are people who stare at us openly, oddly, consistently. It is a blessed gift if used wisely. We feel spiritual and we know we have abilities. Some more than others, some more stronger than others. We feel and know that we are different! Keep that thought!

5) We are different and it has nothing to do with witches, vampires, travelers, religion but simply very sensitive. That we can perceive the earths vibration and pickup on things that are happening more so than others. We are just more sensitive nothing more nothing less. Keep that thought!

These are the things I read on the internet.

I am working on creating a website. I was denied membership because of my beliefs up front and I hesitated in providing a picture of my eyes and face, but it was a requirement. That is okay because I will reveal myself to those I am comfortable with and whom I truly believe they are like me and not to a group whom I never have seen and have different beliefs than my own. We need to be careful!

This shouldn't be a battle of "born with a veil" vs "born in the amniotic sac". Why? The truth is neither birth is normal!

I was born in the sac and I know I have abilities far greater than some born "with the veil". There are people in this world born different period. Who have gifts period. Who feel alone period. Who need to learn who they are, and what they are! Who sense, feel, dream, know things that other "normal" people just don't.

Sisters and brothers, please: we need to help each other!

Anon62172 put it nicely: "So most most people born with a caul are loners,” etc. Is this not the truth?

So we've established that we are different, so what next? Please provide suggestions.

I propose an email address different from family and work (no personal info or names, just for this purpose, where we can locate each other and submit it privately. I'll await your response. Any other suggestions?

anon179037
Post 58

I am a 28-year-old African American female. I was born completely within the amniotic sac or what we call a caul. My mother always mentions that I was born in a unique way and that doctors where amazed the way I was born. I am yet still relatively young.

My gifts have not come to full bloom. However, at times I feel very powerful. I guess I just don’t know what powers they are right now in my life. Sometimes, I do feel that I fight my gifts because I am afraid of them. I do often feel very much alone at times and I have to constantly ask God for positivity because I can see the evil in people. I was raised in a pentecostal church and yet continue to go to church. My father is a pastor and my mother is a prophet. Three years ago I became saved and was filled with God’s holy spirit.

One of the most challenging things right now for me is going to a grocery store or crowded shopping center. I pick up on so many spirits from people that I hurry out of the store. It amazes me when people constantly stare at me, as if they also know something is different about me.

I feel alone in this world, but very much shielded and protected by beings I can’t see with my natural eye. At times (good) presences that I can’t see, are so close to me that I can feel their good vibes.

One of the amazing gifts that I have is writing. Besides getting my masters in Health Information Management, my most sought after career is to be an inspirational novelist. It’s amazing because my first book that I am attempting to write was going to be fiction. However, God has allowed me to live out the chapters in my first book.

My life is odd. God has sent me to several jobs just to meet people and help them in some way. I’m not a big talker, because I’ve noticed what I say has a huge impact. Because I can easily see the negative attributes in people, I have to be careful not to constantly correct or find fault in individuals.

Lastly, I’ve been disliked without a cause! Don’t know why, but some people seem to hate me with a passion. These same people who hate me are drawn to know more about me. Once they find out I’m not who they suspected me to be, they love me genuinely.

werewolves88
Post 57

@anon146830: Thank you for the reply. I’m sorry to hear about you and your sister’s relationship. I guess it’s not easy being us. I just wish sometimes we all could meet each other and help each other to get through this type of thing. I hope there will be an answer soon for all of us being born this way.

When you say this words, ”I feel in the deepest of my heart that we are here for a reason. This is an unusual birth, the fact that we are loners, and not by choice, either...” It just totally explains how I feel inside. No one will understand how we feel inside besides us who are born in this way, and when you ask this question “Have any of you experienced that your feelings and abilities are getting stronger, to where you’d rather be alone?” my answer is yes, but I’m not really feeling the fear -- more like confusion and having more questions, like what does this all mean, or is this really happening to me or is it just a dream and when I wake up it will be gone? But the problem is, I don’t want it to be gone because if it’s gone I’m scared I will lose part of me. I guess that’s the only thing that scares me, is if I ever lose the things that I have now, although I’m not sure what to call the things that we have but whatever it is, this is who we are and this is part of us.

No one will understand this beside us. So what did you find out when you did your research? Anyway it will be lovely to know what you have found out. Anything that will help all of us to understand more why we are born this way and to hear what people in the olden days use to think of babies that were born like us during those days. Hope to hear from you soon.

anon177529
Post 56

Very well said anon177069. I do feel the need for us to connect. We are born different and that's why we feel lonely or even feared by others. We are all special and feel only to help each other out and others. I feel that is my duty upon this Earth. We live for what drives us in our souls to do so. More or less, that is how I feel. So keep praying brothers and sisters, and keep the hope alive.

anon177069
Post 55

@werewolves88 : This is anon146830. Thanks for your reply. I asked you this because it was the same for me with my sister's teenage (13) son. I tried to warn her, but no one ever returned my calls and he got shot in his home and died, while she was working. The events haunt me. My sister does not speak to me, and it hurts a lot. He was truly a great kid. I know how you feel. I read your posts and of others and feel that only we can help each other, because no one knows how it feels. I tried telling an old friend the things that I see, sense and hear and I got pretty much left out. You see, no one really knows how it feels. It's fearful and yet it's a blessing.

I feel in the deepest of my heart that we are here for a reason. This is an unusual birth, the fact that we are loners, and not by choice, either. The dreams, visions, perceptions, feelings, we can read people like a book. No, this isn't normal! How can we feel like we fit in, when we live with abnormal character traits? Sometimes I wake up with tears in my eyes because I feel someone out there is needing me right now and I don't know who it is, so I start calling people.

I wanted to tell you that it isn't your fault. You acted out of concern because he is your dad. She should have told you about the accident and not have waited until you called. This would seem more appropriate to me, that my mom calls me if something happened to my dad, than you would have seen it as I dreamed it, and it was real? The events happened in reverse order, but you are not to blame. More, and stranger things you will experience and it will help you learn how to work with the visions.

I have done some research and have asked older people of 70 and 80 years of age. You'd be surprised what I have found out.

People are starting to learn of this now, why? Why are we different, is there a true purpose to this? Can people actually see what we are? I believe this is a good place to start.

Just recently, I had a friend over and we were talking about our children and I commented on her child doing something bad without her consent and it happened as we spoke. I know she felt weird, especially when she said yeah, I know, one of these days right? It happened no more than five minutes later. When we spoke of her problems, I told them to her and she asked if I can read minds as well.

Are we different? No doubt. Have any of you experienced that your feelings and abilities are getting stronger, to where you'd rather be alone? more fear?

@anon175544: You said: "Deep down inside I am afraid all the time, though I also know that I am safe." I have had this feeling all my life. I know this is from God, therefore I am not afraid, but people fear what they don't understand, we didn't understand and many of still don't, that we are indeed different, but I know that hopefully soon we will find a way to speak openly. Loneliness in this world no more, although we are well accompanied by the Lord.

My advice to all is to find each other. If you feel that lonely and if it feels you are overwhelmed find each other. We can do this. If you're afraid, then create email account separate from your personal one, one for just us, and talk to one another.

Don't feel crazy, or left out to where its hurtful, afraid, or fear to do something bad. Please don't! The Lord will help us, so speak to Him. You are not alone!

anon175544
Post 54

It is truly a blessing to see so many people like me. I think my mother told me about my caul by accident. I was always different, and she would try to make me stop "predicting" things. They were as simple as I would know when someone was coming to our home, know who was at the door (from another room), knew when the phone would ring, and who was on the line (this is way before caller ID). My sister used to get a kick out of it, and started telling people. That's when my mother told me I was born with a white veil over my face, she said the doctors and nurses were calling people in to see me. She also told me it was the evil, my predictions,and so as a teenager I fought very hard to ignore any signs. But I always knew I was different.

I am very beautiful, which I thought was my curse. I have no friends, and can feel everything. 17 years ago I went to church 3 times a week, and I was very, very close to god. People started turning away from me for me being different, and not believing as they did. At first I ignored it, and then I started feeling, and seeing evil and fakes in the church I loved so much. I stopped going, but couldn't stay away.

This gift is so hard to live with. I have a heavy heart daily, the loneliness is horrid. I am married with five children, and I can already see my future after they are gone. I have had three readers over a period of 20+ years, in different parts of the country, who know exactly who I am, and it's a good feeling. I been told I should be a reader, and one was frightened and called someone in another state about me. now that was scary.

I wish I could meet others like myself. I love everyone, and am kind to even those who hurt me, I don't know any other way but to love. I am 52 and purposely stay away from people so that they can't hurt me. I am admired for my beauty and talents, but that only makes me feel even more of an outcast.

Deep down inside I am afraid all the time, though I also know that I am safe.

I know this post sounds very strange but I have NEVER spoken to anyone about this, if I accidentally warn someone, and forget and tell someone I knew something before anyone else, I make up a reason that is plausible. It is difficult not to share warnings and predictions with your children. Is there a way to meet others like myself? It would be so nice to not have to feel so guarded all the time.

werewolves88
Post 53

@anon146830: Sorry I took a while to reply back. When you asked me the question before, it made me think a lot and yes, when I saw my dad in a car accident, it did feel real and I admit I was upset at my mom because of what she thinks about me but I have learned by now that I should have known better not to say anything to her about my dad because yes, you’re right -- my dad is her husband and it did scare her that her own daughter could see the death of her husband. So it was my fault. Because of that mistake I paid a price for it. There was nothing much I could do about it because I am who I am. I can’t change what I am or who I am from inside or outside. Yes, I did get upset with her before for not telling me, but I forgive her for it now, because it’s her choice to do what she wants. I’m just my mother’s daughter and I can’t be more than that. I have changed since those experiences. I guess I’m getting wiser. All I can do now is just hope there is some explanation why all of us born this way. I hope I gave you enough of an answer for your question and thanks for asking those questions.

werewolves88
Post 52

I’ve posted comments before on here on this forum. I just read on old post in here and I’m posting again because there are a lot of things happening nowadays and it makes me have flashbacks, like a memory from past or dreams that I see myself in some place that I don’t know. I’m not sure and sometimes I feel like something is missing inside me. I just don’t know why. I have a family and a job to keep me busy, but there’s always something deep down inside of me, ever since I was little, that some part of me is missing and I don’t know what it is. It just doesn’t make sense at all. Does anyone ever feel the same way I do? Or maybe it’s different for each of us, but I really hope there’s explanation for all of us born this way.

anon175034
Post 51

Do any of you all have some type of white mark? I heard it is common among caul births?

anon174791
Post 50

I was also born “different,” but I didn’t know until a few moths ago. I come from a large family and having privacy was impossible. Loneliness occurred when I stirred away from God. I help my family and friends with all my heart but only the Lord fills the void that would sadden my heart. I didn’t understand a lot of things that happened to me and at times felt I wasn’t alone. Although I couldn’t see anyone, I felt them there.

I have had so many wonderful experiences with the Lord, but when I was a teenager, I had every temptation under the sun. Not wanting to become like others, I separated myself from them. I felt like a loner all my life because I haven’t really came across someone like me “truly like me.” Sure, I am very social and loving and understanding, but because I was wise at a young age, my family and friends made fun of me. I have seen things that would put fear in anyone’s heart. I felt like I was dropped off to this planet. Never really feeling part of it.

Always looking to the stars relaxes me and I know I will always feel peace in my heart as long as I stay focus in the Lord. Use your gifts for good, for the glory of God, not yourself. Help others lovingly and pray for those weaker than you. Give your time to friends or family — sometimes a smile and hug or even a simple phone call.

I know that I can not change who I am, or what I am but I have learned to accept it and no longer fear the things that are happening in my life. Yes it would be nice to unite with others who are like me and just talk. But I realized there is a lot of anonXXXX because of justifiable fear.

Stay strong and keep an eye out, the day may come where we can see each other.

anon173068
Post 49

I learned of my birth with the caul somewhere around last year. Like many others, I had deja vu experiences when I was a kid. I feel different at school and feel the loneliness. At times I get a vibe, like a disturbance. I feel that something is wrong in the world, but at the same time something is coming and I can't tell what it is.

Strange, sometimes I feel like an egg absorbing the negatives of the world or something like that. I'm 17 and if you have any information or things I need to know, please comment. Thank you.

anon166682
Post 48

I`m sorry, buy a few other things I forgot to mention. My face "veil" was just that, over the face. I was born in a Catholic Hospital, where the doctor carefully cuts away the sac and discards it, but Sister Rosario helping the doctor told my mother I had "the veil". My mother has just mentioned it three times in my life, as the religious hospitals throw the caul away. Mom said they were intrigued nonetheless, because it looked like a "mask".

I was raised in a strict Catholic upbringing. As a child, I was "shut out" from the other activities the other children would play. Like I said before, I am not special in any way. Needless to say, I felt terrible insecurity among my peers. I didn't understand them, and they didn't understand me.

I was a nice looking lad with wavy black hair and dark, piercing eyes. One teacher told my mother that she "just could not scold me, as my eyes just melted her." I was not athletic, and homework was a whiz, so I became an altar boy and turned to religion, as I knew God would accept me. I prayed constantly when I was about 8 years old. Somehow, God gave me a glimpse of or an understanding of Jesus at such a tender age. Jesus was my best friend.

I saw many events that have happened on the earth before they happened, but as I grew older, the pressure of living in a "real" world as opposed to my enigmatic one. It was extremely tough, so I became a drug abuser and alcholic. I was at my bottom when I finally lifted myself with my own bootstraps and said enough. I have not drank or done drugs for 12 years now.

I'm not quite sure where I'm leading all this with you, but will say that I have experienced God's awesome power when I told him I thought he had abandoned me. It was outside of all cosmic laws, scientifically impossible and I saw a color that I have never seen on this Earth. Everything was bathed in this wondrous light.

I'm so sorry I don`t have answers because I do not even know. But please people, as my friends, God is calling us. And Mary is pleading with us to turn back to her son Jesus. Critical events are going to start happening. Look at our world today, my friends.

I'm not a doomsayer, but please, get right with God. I know in my heart that we may not have much time. I feel part of my purpose here on Earth is to tell people the importance of God in your lives. Don't have conflicts with people. Be gentle, have humility. God loves all of us equally. I could write a whole book on the supernatural experiences I have witnessed, but it would be just that: a "book." Love to all of you.

anon166680
Post 47

Hopefully when you read this we are in mental synchronization. I have prayed for each of you. I'm very close to God, very spiritual and we speak. The Lord is not only in my heart. but he guides me as he does you. He who is in you is stronger than he who is in the world.

God gave the Holy Spirit to guide us and so he does.

I will tell you something that happened to me a while ago. Maybe you can confirm.

I was waiting for my driver one day when suddenly I noticed he was not the same. I had a different one. After I was ready to go he turned to me and said these words: "We have been looking for you. Why have you been hiding?" I responded that I have not been hiding. He continued to ask: "May I tell the others? Can I tell them that I have found you?" I tried to change the conversation by saying I do not know what you are speaking of and he said yes you do. In the most utmost respect he understood what I meant. I told him he could not tell the others that he has found me. He looked happy to have found me and concerned at the same time.

I have always been a leader. People listen to me and come to me for answers, and I go to the Lord for the best answer to their questions. I can say this. I know we are different and that we are not "normal" people. I have been saddened by many of these posts because I feel I need to guide some of you spiritually. However, I am with you and the Lord is with us. I also battle very sad moments like I am now. I feel my "family" here will never understand me, so I have stopped trying and just give them space and it hurts but rejection does not feel good either. I can see right through them.

Please don't give up. The Lord put here and He is the one that wants us to be happy, but we need each other. Close your eyes, in a room alone, just the Lord and you and ask Him what he wants you to do and what he wants us to do. We are pieces of each other's puzzles. I want to help you. Tell me how, just do not give up. Please do not!

I will contact my other caulbearer family member to see what we need to do for you, for us, for the Lord. We complete each other and we feel lonely because many of us do not know others like us.

We have been chosen. Suddenly I do not feel saddened, because we can find each other. Let us start by understanding our dreams, our feelings they are telling us something. Pray for me and for each other as I will pray for you and the others.

So about the strange driver, tell me what do you think it means?

anon166502
Post 46

Just wanted to add to my post below, that I do not claim in any way to be privileged or special. I knew my grandmother was going to die one day before she did, but I was too afraid to tell anyone. Next day, she had a massive heart attack.

I've heard of many people saying they are "psychic" and the like, but I want no part it. It scares me terribly. I knew of the middle east unrest before Egypt's government was overthrown. I told a friend which countries would be affected, and I was right.

I did not predict the Japan earthquake though. I'm only going to say this. Too many people are totally oblivious to what is happening in our world, naturally, and economically. The Earth is trying to tell us something. We are destroying our planet and it's fighting back. As far as world peace and the situation, don't count on it. We are living in perilous times. Do not take anyone or anything for granted. Pray for your families, friends, your community and for the world, please. The clock is ticking.

anon166469
Post 45

I was born with a “birth caul”, and the youngest of 10 children.

Ever since I can remember I “knew” certain things were going to happen, but no one took it seriously. I was an outcast as a grade schooler ( I’m a guy ) and my feeling of rejection haunts me to this day. I never felt people understood me. I got involved with drugs and booze, then finally quit cold turkey after eight years.

My clearest premonitions are of the crash of America Airlines flight 191 in Chicago. I was in my sophomore year of high school that day and had a dream the night before of being in a huge plane. Suddenlym it rolled vertical, with the left wing pointing to the ground, the overhead bins burst open, sending carry-on luggage hurtling to the left side of the plane, hitting people’s heads. I knew there was going to be a plane crash, but did not know where or what airline.

The odd thing about that plane, it was like I was inside as it flipped over, but it was total silence. I heard a few gasps, and that was it, then boom. I do not know how people react to such a drastic, terrible tragedy, but, apparently on flight 191, there was too much total shock to even scream. In 30 seconds it was over. Everyone was killed instantly.

I remember being in class, and something told me to look at the clock. It was 3:02 p.m. and my heart raced; this was the exact time of the accident. My cousin is the only one who knows because I told him of a plane crash within a few days that would happen. He couldn’t believe it.

I also had dreams of 9/11 since the Friday before it happened. On Sunday afternoon, I told a friend I saw jetliners flying into a building and then there were huge explosions. I did not know the airline involved or that it was the twin towers, Sometimes I feel like a freak, but really, I’m just a normal guy.

anon164789
Post 44

Blessings to you all. I have been searching and looking all over for information and others of this kind of people, or should I say, my kind of people. I also am a veil baby born with this gift. I was told by my mom all my life from the time I can remember.

I am 42 years old now. She told me that I was born with a gift. She constantly repeated this to me over and over again. She tells me to get and stay close to God and pray for direction and how to use the direction. She told me that not only was I born with the veil, but that she did not see it. The doctor who delivered me, knew and he told her that I was born with the veil and not only over my face, but over my entire body and that it was so thick that he had to cut me out of it. He announced it to others and it spread over the entire hospital and she said everyone came just to see the little baby who was born with the veil. She said the doctor told her that she has a true fortune teller and that he hopes that he would be alive to see me operate with the gift.

My mom quoted that the doctor said that he has delivered many babies with the veil but has never before me had delivered a baby with its entire body inside the veil and so thick to be cut out of it. She said he was amazed.

I am a christian and I do believe what you all are saying and have said. I have been betrayed and let down and disappointed in many ways. I too feel like a loner. I feel sometimes alone and that many different people are picking on me and life is just hard and complicated sometimes.

I often ask the question "why?" Why do these things happen to me? I often dream, and have dreams that come true are lived out and played as Deja vu constantly. Things I say come to pass and I see visions. It scares me sometimes. I did not understand it and most times I still do not. That is why I am now trying to reach out to others like me and learn to develop and use this for good and for the Lord's will.

At the time just before 9/11, I was at home. I had gone to church as usual to the Sunday service. I was married at the time. My husband then was a truck driver and he still is now today. I was home lying across my bed reading my bible and he crossed my mind. I read and pray constantly. I cannot remember what time it was when I called him but the spirit of god told me to call him and tell him to drive. I changed no words or thoughts to question God, so I did. I called him. I asked him what he was doing? He replied he was sleeping. I was surprised. I told him that was odd because at that time of night or evening he was normally driving. I told him to get up and drive and he said okay, that he was going to contact his friends to let him know he was leaving.

He was, in fact, making a delivery at the twin towers at the bottom of the towers. He would not even be alive today or maybe even found because I did not know he was there until after he had left and the incident has already happened. Also, his friend decided to leave with him and their lives were spared due to the good grace of God.

I thank God for what he has blessed me with. I see and have strong feelings about so much that I do not tell or say anything about most of it. I wait until it is passed to see how accurate i am. I do not want people looking at me funny or calling me a witch or anything evil.

I was so scared and not understanding my gift I used to pray that the Lord take that gift from me. I was a lot younger then and now I know better. I pray now that the Lord uses me to be a blessing and leads and guides me for his vessel.

I thank God that I have found this site today and I pray for you all and if you can help me that will be great or if you just want to talk, that is great too. The person who is head over this, I think it is a good idea a way to connect with the ones who share the same. May God bless you all forever and may he give us all strength and endurance with positivity and love to do his will and help others reach for him and their breakthrough. Blessings from another child of God.

anon164463
Post 43

I was raised as a Hebrew Israelite. I am a child of God the Almighty, and I was told that I was born with a veil over my face. I am in my 30’s now, and truth be told, I feel very much a loner despite so many people being drawn to me. I believe this is what brought me to this site today, because I recently have felt betrayed by so many, and I can sense when someone has ill intent towards me. I’ve been called “paranoid” and “crazy”, whenever I attempted to confront people who were lying. Sadly, enough there are so many of those with “deceiving spirits,” that I just don’t know how to cope or survive in this world any longer. I truly do not want to have to walk upon those who are evil in nature, and I certainly don’t want to have to depend on them to sustain myself. I truly need God’s blessings and protection with this obstacle.

Regarding my experiences and seeing things. I recall having a conversation with an Israeli friend, who was considering relocating to Korea from Israel, due to all of the terror attacks, and I recall stating to him that I had a feeling that there will be an attack on U. S. soil, as the U. S. had walked away from the World Financial Conference (I think) where the world’s leaders were attempting to label Israel as a Zionist state. The discussion with my friend came a few days prior to 9/11. I did witness the first tower burning live, while I was commuting to work via bus, as we were driving into the Lincoln Tunnel. Prior to knowing what occurred, I said to a friend that I was riding with, “Look the WTC is on fire, I bet it was a terrorist attack”. I noticed the black smoke coming from the first tower, and she stated “it’s probably just a small kitchen fire”. However, by the time I entered into my office in Manhattan, everyone was standing in front of the television and that’s when I witnessed the second tower attacked by a plane, live on television.

Sometimes, I even fear that I may have brought death to my older brother, as I recall praying to God that he be at peace and free, and then a few months later he had passed away. Speaking of his passing, when he did pass away, I hadn’t seen him in several years. However, the night prior to his burial, I happened to go to the supermarket with the teenage girls in my family, in an effort to lighten the somber spirit within the household, so that we could gorge on ice cream and all kinds of comfort food. I happened to rest my purse on a freezer and there I saw incense, one named the “Spirit of Allah”, “Frankincense”, among others. Something told me to purchase those incense, as my brother had converted to Islam and requested to have a Muslim burial prior to his passing. (I am not Muslim and I’ll share that strange phenomenon shortly). However, I purchased the incense, as I believe the Spirit of God had moved me to do so. The evening before my brother’s burial, I saw his spirit and I believe he remained with me in the room all night and at times he was talking with me, about small matters.

My younger brother had burned the incense that night without my having even saying anything, as I became distracted with other things. In any event, the morning of my brother’s burial he said to me “I have to go to the funeral home now, because Uncle S--- is waiting there for me”, and I didn’t see his spirit anymore. However, following the 9/11 attacks, I started wondering whether Islam was the right way, as it often appears to be a very disciplined religion, which is committed to God with their prayers 5 times a day and such. However, my daddy, who raised me as a Hebrew Israelite (Christian faith) and my brother, visited me in my dreams that night. My daddy was yelling at my brother for converting to Islam, and it was very clear to me the next morning that it would not be a good idea for me to consider that path.

Just like so many others have stated, I often feel isolated, betrayed even by family members, and I often feel like the world is against me. I am consistently reaching out to God for guidance, protection, and to send His angels to protect me from all evil. There has been so many times that I’ve almost been killed. I’ve been held at knife point on two occasions, and God sent His angels to protect me from several car accidents, literally stopping my car within less than seven inches from a head-on collision.

You should also note that I was born at seven and a half months and my mother became pregnant with an IUD inside of her. I was burned with hot water at one year old, and I’ve had too many other encounters to name. Naturally, I am feeling quite tired of battling for my life and trying to maintain my sanity and desire to live, as I have very little left to live for besides God. I am thankful that He keeps blessing me with the strength to continue in my work as a Social Worker, and to move forward in life, but it is a huge challenges.

I do pray for all of my fellow caulbearers, and I have no other choice but to conclude that God has chosen us for His purpose, and that we must use it to glorify Him. It is quite hard, and I just ask those who believe in I AM to pray for me, as well as, yourselves. May God be with each of you, as it is truly a spiritual warfare going on, and even the demons know who are the children of God. Love, peace, and God bless.

anon161427
Post 42

@anon160619: I too wish to gather with my own, I only know one and she is related to me and yes, we talk. I also wish to speak to others knowing there would be no deceit or dealing with similar spirits within.

What if those who searched for us then are somehow still searching for us now? There is strength in numbers. I know this is why we were feared back when. I feel this is the time to act.

I feel so bad that many of us are being heavily medicated, while others choose to ignore what they are and are drinking and smoking. I always say, "He who is in us is greater than he who is in the world." Being a pastor yourself you are well aware of what I am trying to say. We have our purpose and you are on the right track. What do you suggest? I am also VL - this is no coincidence!

anon160619
Post 41

I was born with a caul also. It was unknown to me until I was seven and my grandmother told me. I looked like a baby doll with porcelain features. I also knew when people were dying and even the exact moment they died. I told of someone dying, only to be re-awakened that morning and said that I had caused the death. I was only 11 years old and was not even near the person.

I also know what you mean about when people are talking and you know they are lying or are hiding something or they are working with a familiar spirit and I know what you mean about deja' vu. I have that too, and going places and either see things or people that you know that you have experienced before.

I am a loner and, of course, like you, it is hard to find friends who are truthful. I am a pastor, evangelist, teacher and prophet and everything I have said has come to pass – some for good and some for bad.

It is sad that we who God has chosen to be sensitive in the spirit and have a foreknowledge and spiritual insight in the now and the future, cannot find each other and work together. Maybe this is God's plan for us. The outsiders do not believe us, our parents and family wants us to hush.

When we talk to each other, at least we will know that we are speaking the truth and not trying to deceive, manipulate, alienate or control a person or situation, which is witchcraft. Isn't it funny they want to call us witches, when we are the only ones who really know their heart motive, what their minds are thinking and their familiar spirits that they work in? Let's try to get together and see what we can do for good. --VL

anon154401
Post 40

I have my Grandmother's caul in an old Irish linen drawstring bag. She was born in Ireland in 1876. It was wrapped in soft cloth and placed in this delicately made bag. The bag has some tatted lace on it. I always knew that she supposedly has some special intuition or esp, as they used to call it. She thought she did also.

My mother kept it after her mother died in 1958. The night my mother died, I got the bag from her house and took it home with me. I opened it once and there was a powdery residue and the cloth was slightly stained. It kind of scared me to do it, as if I was intruding on something rather sacred and so private. I had done that years before my mother died, as I was so curious.

Many strange things happened to my grandmother, to my mother and now to me. I see miracles in little, everyday things. My son died when he was 20 and that was more than 20 years ago. I have so many coincidences happen to me that are definitely like connections with him.

I know the power doesn't transfer with the owner of a caul, but I still have it. My daughter knows about it, but has never seen it since she was an adult. I haven't mentioned it for a while. I will give it to her, if she wants it. I need to tell her where it is, in case I pass unexpectedly. I can't believe that it is 135 years old!

anon146830
Post 39

To werewolves88: May I please ask these questions?

If you can answer them, about seeing your dad get hurt twice in your dreams - did it feel so "real as if you were there"? Is it the fact that your mother didn't tell you the second time, or is it the fact that you feel angry with how she looked at you "like a monster" that you moved away from her?

You are telling her you are seeing her husband (your dad) get hurt and its happening as you spoke to her. You are intimidating to her. You have something real that she doesn't understand and you have been accurate.

I've been there too with my dad, my nephew and other family members who are currently dead. It hurts. It hurts pretty bad. The dreams are frightening and now they are real - premonitions.

It's really not the good stuff we see -- it's the bad things that happen that we have no control over and feel somewhat responsible.

You are right. Our situations may seem different, but there is so much likeness between us as well. I am a loner, just like you. Different from everyone. We dream, and we laugh, talk and wake up crying.

I follow my heart and thank the Lord for another day. I ask for wisdom, strength and courage to accept the things I cannot change. I pray day and night so I can continue to prepare. Lean towards God, who put us here for a reason. Use your gifts for good and develop the others. A very strong peace will overwhelm you and it'll be your ticket in.

Anger gives us strength to do things. We don't do well with anger, but used correctly it' a strong tool. Stay strong.

werewolves88
Post 38

To:anon142576: I know you were mentioning about me. I guess after reading your story I could relate to it, although we have different situations.

The only part that drives me crazy is before about seeing blood in my dreams because I always know someone who is close to me or someone in my family or relative will either get sick or die.

When my dad first was in a car accident, i actually dreamed about it and i saw how the car crashed and blood was everywhere and i saw my dad walk out alive from the car. I quickly called my mom when i got up and she said yes, your dad was in a car accident and i was really shocked. She asked me how did i know and i told her i dreamed about it but she didn't say much until i went to visit my dad in the hospital. They say it's a miracle how my dad could survive that crash, so my mom asked again how did I know and i gave her the same answer.

I told her on the phone and the look on her face just really makes me upset because she looked at me like I'm a monster or something weird. After that, i don't talk much to her anymore but then another thing happened again.

This time i dreamed about my dad in a car crash again and it looked really bad this time. I woke up in shock and quickly grabbed the phone to ring my mom. I asked her did dad have a car crash again and she said yes and he's been in a coma for two days and i asked her why she didn't tell me and she said she doesn't want me to be upset anymore, that's the only reason why. i moved far away from home because I'm disappointed with my mom.

anon142576
Post 36

I was born en-caul. Please read this carefully. I have carefully read your posts, and my heart aches for some of you who don’t know what you are or who you are. I wanted to inform those seeking answers.

Do you realize how similarly we speak? How our experiences are similar? How our lives have been quite remarkable in similarities? Some are just learning about their birth stories now, like me.

Some have known for years, but dulled it out — it’s easier that way. Do not consider yourselves “freaks.” You are not.

Strange for others — common to us. Those born like you are your true brothers and sisters. I was informed that we are special. No kidding! The things we see, hear, feel, dream and see are not normal to the other normal people. These abilities are not normal and that is why we keep it to ourselves and are afraid to tell others — does “crazy” ring a bell?

Growing up with this was so hard and strange for me, because no one could know. I was sworn not to tell for my own protection. I was given a powerful amulet since birth to keep evil away, but I would lose them or they would break and my mom kept buying me another one. Actually I have two different ones.

I did extensive research and yet no one really knows why there are two kinds of cauls. Some are born en-caul and some are born with part of the amniotic sac. Caulbearers are those who have gifts and have been born with the amniotic sac — but are different. We cannot say that caulbearers or “true” caulbearers are the ones born partially covered. I am en-caul and no one has the slightest idea of what my life has been like for me. I can tell you stories that should give you a better idea.

My step-grandmother was in her bed. She had been bedridden for many years. She stopped communicating pleasantly and became so arrogant so no one wanted to spend time with her. Then she decided not to talk at all and was always staring out the window. One day, I entered the room when I was only 11 years old and stood by her.

She was completely still, until suddenly, she turned her head and said: “Who are you? What are you?” I said I am your son’s step daughter. She said you are not my son’s step-daughter. What are you? I repeated it nicely as I put my hand on the bed rail. She reached to me and I saw peace come to her.

She asked, “Did you come for me?” I said, “No, I did not come for you. You can rest now.” A couple of days later, I told my mom that my step-grandmother was dying. My mom got angry and said not to say that. I told her go check. She disregarded me and I approached her again and said, “Mom she’s dying, you need to go” My mom left. It was two miles away. When I arrived later that afternoon, she passed away. My mom pulled me aside. She wanted to know how I knew it because she was fine yesterday. I told her I just knew. I knew that and a lot more, but she was the one who told me not to say anything, so I included her.

I remember when I was a small child and I was crying. I felt so misplaced and unhappy and I remember telling my mom I wanted to go home. She grabbed me and said, “This is your home.” I said no, this is not my home. I pointed to the skies and said it’s up there. I wasn’t exposed to religion, so how did I know?

People, sisters and brothers, we are messengers. That is why we don’t fit it. Some of us have been put away because we went crazy, some are abusing drugs and liquor because no one ever told them. It’s too hard for some, but we are strong and we need to help.

I am so very spiritual. I have little tolerance for stupidity. I can sense evil and good in people and yes, I am a loner as well. I love humanity and I have been spotted by other people who have approached me and have told me. “You are different from us, I see it. You are very spiritual”. There’s a voice, always guiding me and telling me there’s still goodness in people, not to give up.

People need honesty, a smile, a good hug and hope. That is what I do. I spend a lot of time talking to God for strength because no one I know can help me. If 1 out of 800,000 births are cauls, then there aren’t many of us. Some of us were told that people with our abilities were considered sorcerers or witches and they were burned alive. Some babies born in this manner were killed at birth in other cultures for fear of their “abilities” when they grow up. Some say we’re vampires — because of immortality, they were slain.

We didn’t come to hurt anyone. We are pillars of light and messengers with abilities to be used for good. I hope this helped. This is all I can say for now. God bless you all.

anon139346
Post 35

I was born with a caul covering my face 63 years ago. As child, my mother explained to me my face was milk white, smooth and without wrinkles when I was born.

An older Italian women who shared the hospital room with my mother asked my mother if she saved the caul, saying "a ship's captain would pay a huge sum to have the caul aboard his ship," believing his ship would never sink with the veil aboard. My mother, being young and not knowing of the caul, unfortunately did not save it.

As far back as I can remember, I could foresee things happening prior to actually occurring, i.e., family births, deaths, accidents and good fortune. Sometimes I would tell others what I saw, but most times I would keep it to myself because I didn't want others to feel I was different or crazy.

Throughout my lifetime, I've had a hard time keeping close friendships because I could feel and sense what people were really thinking. It's as though I was looking through to their inner selves. Hence, I too have been a loner much of my life. It was very difficult as a child not fitting in - making me distant and non-trusting of others.

As an adult, I've tried to overcome the fears of getting too close to others, only to find I can't.

As stated in other postings, "we feel close to God and have an intimate friendship with Him" because of His unconditional love.

I feel so fortunate to have found this site and to know that there are others like myself out there.

God bless you all.

werewolves88
Post 34

@anon46207, who ever you are: First of all, I'm not going to be rude to you but I think you're dead wrong! Seriously, do you even know what I've been through my entire life being born in a full sac and knowing when I was little my parents told me that I was different and I was born in different way which is in a sac and the nurse even had the shock of her life when she saw how I was born? My sac didn't open so the nurse had to open it to me and F.Y.I., no one knows if people who are born with a veil and people who are born in full sac have the same psychic power, ok? No one is the same.

Back to where the nurse opened my sac and the doc and the nurse said I look really clean for a baby, maybe because I was born in a sac so I didn't have blood much on me and she told my mom she never ever saw anyone who born the same way like I was and my mom told her to keep my sac and the nurse said yes and then for some odd reason, she never give it back to my mom. I don't know why.

Anyway, as far as I could remember when I was little, I did act weird. I laughed in my sleep, I cried in my sleep and I walked in my sleep. Worst of all, I even talked in my sleep and I always had a hard time to make friends with people. I just couldn't fit in because I know they will betray me or they will stop being my friends. I try to fit in but every time it's all the same. I couldn't have friends because I know they will turn their back on me and it hurts me.

I always know when something good or bad will happen, when I'm upset something weird will happen or I will hear a voice talking (very, very rare), plus I will always have weird dreams that sometimes will come true and when I'm thinking about something and the thing will happen sometimes too. Lucky I don't sleepwalk anymore, but I do still laugh, cry and talk in my sleep. Plus sometimes, I have a flashback and see weird images and then after the flashback has gone, I will have a really bad headache. That's why I don't really like having flashbacks is because it hurts me.

Sometimes I know things will happen even before they happen because I saw it in my dreams sometimes. Plus, I always have weird dreams seeing myself in different times and look different every time but I know it's me and I always dream about water and sometimes I have a nightmare where I nearly drown and when I wake up late at night I was fine but I know it seems real that I could never get back to sleep again.

Even in my dreams I saw many times how I die or I see myself in a coffin and there's always a guy with me who seems more like a friend or a lover or maybe something else – I don't know. I remember when I was in a car before, on a family trip where I nearly screamed and woke up in shock because I saw someone try to kill me by hitting me with something and it kept repeating and it scared me. My mom asked me what wrong and I told her I'm fine when she knew I'm wasn't because she always said I'm different ever since I was little.

She said I'm a strong willed kind of person and will know to get along well with people, although I always got bullied in school for being different and sometimes when I wish about something and it will happen. Sometimes and I don't know why but anyway it scared me a lot sometimes knowing am I a freak or maybe I'm not special at all. Maybe I'm just weird and have bad luck or maybe it's all just a dream and things like this would never happen to someone like me because I'm not special and I'm not gifted.

I always think this it all just a coincidence but it just happens way too much just to be a coincidence. I always wanted someone just to tell me the truth about what I am because I don't even know what I am and sometimes I could know where people put things and I could find them. I just don't know what I am anymore so if anyone knows what I am just please tell me because I'm really confused and I just need a friend who knows what I am. But the bad part is I never have a friend because I'm a loner and I always think I'm alone but then I come to this site and found out there's a lot more people like me which makes me really happy. But I always know I could never trust anyone, anyway. It's just how I am.

Even my mom wishes I wasn't so independent and a loner, but I guess that's just how I am. I couldn't change it and I couldn't trust anyone because I always can see they are different from me and I will not fit in and I could sense when people are lying to me too, and it just annoys me. I don't like people to lie to me. I like people who can just be honest with me. Plus, I always could sense something around me too, and sometimes in my dreams, I see people's faces that I didn't know and then when I went out to town I could see that person when I don't even know who they are and I never saw them before.

Sometimes I think I know someone who is a stranger and I never met them before, and it always makes me wonder is it a past life thing when you think you know that person but then they were just a random person who was a stranger and you never even talk to them before but you just have a feeling like you knew them before? That's how I feel sometimes towards a stranger.

Now I moved far away from home and the weird part is the lady who wanted to be my friend. She never actually knew that I saw her. I meant to say I saw a flash or image of her even before we were friends because when she first introduced herself, I already saw something about her and I knew she had a tattoo on her middle back before I even saw the tattoo, myself. Mind you, I didn't even touch her hand when she introduce herself to me. I just saw it just by looking at her, which freaked me out a bit because then when we started hanging out, she did have a tattoo on her middle back and I could never tell her I saw something about her even before we are friends because I know she will think I'm crazy or she will be freaked out and think I'm a freak or something. So, I just keep it to myself. That's the first time it ever happened and I didn't have that kind of connection anymore with anyone so she is the only one, I hope.

So as you all can read, I don't lie about what I wrote here. It's just few of the things that happened to me because I couldn't bear to say it all because it will be very boring just reading about me, etc., so is the person who says people born in sac are not like the caulbearers, then tell me personally, what am i? Because I don't even know what I am and who I am and why things like that happen to me.

So if anyone has an answer, I would like to know about it so please just help me because sometimes I'm worried I may end up being in looney bin house when I know I'm perfectly fine. It's just I don't know what I am or who I am, so anyone if you have any answers, please help me.

anon135211
Post 32

I was born a caulbearer, and I know that I have always felt different, and highly spiritual. I also at times will know what someone is going to say or know that something is going to happen, bad or good.

My mom and grandmother told me I was born with a veil over my face and that I was gifted by God, but I think all God's children are gifted with a special gift. I know that sometimes I can heal, touch someone and feel see their soul. Or I can at times look at you and see your soul.

I am a loner and don't have many friends. People just don't get me. I am fine being alone at times, but this gift can be a curse to, if affects your relationships in all ways. I have really found myself in the past few years and have accepted my fate in life. God put it there for a reason. And I will always be grateful for that, God has his plan for me.

I am someone who gives messages from God to others that come into my life, ones that God sends to me, and he always lets me know that their there for a reason. I am one of the most understanding person a person could ever know. I suffer because of it. But I will do Gods work that he wants me to do. One of the things that I know is that when God wants you to speak it, it will come out. Amen!

anon134603
Post 31

- anon133235, our stories are very similar. I feel like I was reading my own life story when I read your post. It would be awesome if we could talk more someday.

anon133235
Post 30

I just recently learned i was born with a veil. I had no idea of this until yesterday. The whole situation on how i learned it was quite strange. But first i am going to explain my life.

I was born a Virgo, and i was born a sensitive child. I remember as a child always having Deja Vu. I would always get weird vibes and feelings that i could never begin to explain.

School was difficult for me, and i never quite fit in. I was always the kid who no one really disliked but never really was in with a group of friends even through high school i was the kid who moved between tribes trying to fit in.

I guess i could never let myself get close to people as i felt feelings about them and their character before i knew them.

I have seen ghosts as a child. I was also always able to find lost items around the house for my family. All of these traits and weird feelings seemed to fade, or i ignored them, but i don't remember much in the way of odd things when i was in middle school through high school.

When i was in my first year of college i started smoking a substantial amount of marijuana, and one thing i noticed when i did this was that my dreams would then later come true at random times. I started having dreams of my girlfriend cheating on me with a person i met once and had no idea that she knew him.

I ignored these dreams and thoughts, because i had faith in our relationship. It then later turned out that she was cheating on me with him. I was stunned and didn't know what to think, so i ignored the fact that i knew this all before she came clean. Finally she told me on our three year anniversary.

I had saved up money to buy her an engagement ring, but i knew deep down that i shouldn't buy it for her, and i didn't. Good thing i didn't because i would have been trying to give it to her as she told me this.

I went into depression over this and began smoking more weed. i did have a lump of money to waste, so i did. About six months after all of this i started to feel better about life again and have been becoming generally happier, but as I've been dealing with it, i have had more and more Deja Vu experiences and more dreams that i recognize in my daily life, so much so recently that i spent a whole day in the feeling of Deja Vu.

This is how it all ties together. Up until yesterday i had no idea that i was born with a veil. I went to the doctor and had x-rays done on my spine, and apparently i have a birth defect where something in my spine did not fuse right. so i told my mom, and she had no idea that i had such a birth defect, but she briefly mentioned that i was born with a caul, and me being me i didn't ask her what that was because i was more concerned with my back.

I spent the next day in a feeling of Deja Vu, and it was extremely out of the ordinary. nothing like that had ever happened to me. i was able to know when things were going to happen before they did all day. So i went home and used my friend's computer to search "why do i always have deja vu" and soon ran into people talking about a Venetian veil. I searched the meaning of that that term and came across the world caul, and i was and still am stunned as it only happened three hours ago.

I had no idea all this was linked, i had no idea i had some sort of gift, now that i think about it, when my mother mentioned it yesterday, the way she acted it seemed like she let the word slip. Any reasons as to why a parent would not tell a child they were born with such a thing? Anyway i am glad to learn i am not insane. i truly thought i was going crazy. now i realize that there is a whole part of me that i have not explored, and that i am not alone.

anon128371
Post 29

I must let it be known that I love and believe in Jesus Christ and our Father God. I was born with a veil as well. I always have dreams and they come to pass.

As I become older, it has been hard for me to remember them and interpret them. My mom says its because I cloud my judgment of them when I smoke. I have noticed a change. I'm not proud of it but I do smoke tobacco and weed sometimes. I used to be able to sense something more than humans. I used to sense some sort of spirits.

Some were good and some were bad. My mom told me that people use to try to do harm on me with witchcraft. I believe it does work because I believe in Jesus. My step sister used to force me to play with this evil board. You all know the name of it. She use to wish bad things on me but they didn't happen, thank God.

I don't have many friends, and when I do have a friendship it does not usually last long. I can sense when something is wrong or something bad is going to happen. It is a blessing but it's becoming hard.

People in church have told me I have a calling without knowing how I was born. This one lady who didn't know me from anywhere told me I was born with this caul. How did she know? Many people have told me I have a calling without knowing how I was born.

When I was born my mom went into a coma for seven day and I was born in a water sign according to the "signs". She said when she woke up she went through her years in life and woke up at seven. She told me before she woke up she was jumping rope with her cousin. When she woke up her cousin had passed and I was here.

I can sense when a person is evil or good or lying and a whole bunch of things. It's weird.If any one knows how to tune into this veil or caul please post it up. I am really interested in knowing everything about it. Sorry for such a poorly written post.

anon119220
Post 28

I was born with a veil or caul. I have always seen ghost and sensed spirits. I just have always just known things i can't explain,like sensed danger or a accident. I knew who and when my boyfriend was sleeping with behind my back. I can always always see right thru people and now have no friends. I also knew i was going to be in show business ever since i was a very young child.

I can't make up my mind whether this is a curse or a blessing. I have tried to dumb it down for years because i just couldn't always explain what i knew or sensed. But one thing is for damn sure, I have the gift!

anon118791
Post 27

Interesting reading. As a caulbearer born under Pisces, I love the water. Also, I have been betrayed by close family four times. Loneliness is a problem and I assess strangers quickly by their facial structures, obviously not family.

Having experienced helpful dreams, premonitions, visions and spiritual blessings it seems that there is a common pattern to the lives of the caulbearers. The ‘gifts’ seem to fade with advancing years for septuagenarians except loneliness!

One of my gifts was to be completely intuitive in the field of physics so that lack of formal academic labels did not impede my success. I never sought fame or fortune, but they were never part of my psyche.

anon117627
Post 26

I have just discovered this phenomenon by visiting a man who had a caul over his face at birth. In wondering what a caul was, I checked things out and came upon this site. The person that I saw is a psychic and has known from very early on that he had this gift. He gives a great bio on his website. His name is Frank Castellano and he lives in TN. He is truly remarkable and in reading this blog I realize that so many of you seem to have the same gifts and recognize you are very special.

There's also a book out called "Angels In My Hair" by Lorna Byrne who shares her experiences of being able to see angels all of her life and the joy and aloneness it has created for her. She also has a website. (She also met her brother in the other world who had died years before she was born!) Just keep aligning yourselves with goodness, with Jesus Christ and our Creator.

This gift will certainly help all of us as we are in a time of true spiritual warfare. We need you! I recommend both of these resources to give you consolation and to let you know you are not alone.

anon114341
Post 25

I was born by emergency cesarean in 1980 and possess many of the abilities, thoughts, feelings described above - almost all of them actually and a few more.

I often have very random thoughts and conversations in my head which do not belong to me. I know this sounds strange but it's true. Over time I think I have worked out that I am picking these up from others around me - almost like a radio signal. I also believe I am aware when there are other spiritual entities in my sphere although I cannot actually see them (but think perhaps I prevent myself from seeing them due to my own fears).

My mother used to see spirits regularly when she was younger although she does not really acknowledge anything now due to her faith. I am a loner, and always have been in one sense or another. I do not easily trust people, never have - even from a young age as I get vibes/feelings/thoughts or images about people and have found it increasingly difficult to make new friends as I have grown older, especially in the last few years.

Places I visited as a child I often recognised and knew they felt familiar but I had never actually been there before. I have also been told I am am a natural healer and can heal others. I have done some experimenting with this but not much. I could go on for ages as there are so many things which happen to me regularly. Needless to say I have often felt like a nutter and have regular bouts of depression as a result.

I feel very very alone at times, but I do speak to the universe and to my guardian angels regularly as there is no one to talk to about these sorts of things. I came across this site randomly today and was simply blown away by what I was reading! I do not believe in coincidences! Does this explain why I am the way I am?

I am unsure if I was born with a veil but I know I was born later than expected and via emergency cesarean because I did a 360 degree turn in the womb and got caught on something which disrupted my mums diaphragm and she couldn't move/breathe properly so they needed to get me out quickly, Up until this point my mum tells me she had a great pregnancy -- the best one out of her five children. It's weird because they would have induced her the following week as I was about three or four weeks late -- almost like I wanted to come out exactly at that point.

How are babies born via cesarean birth? Does this mean I was born in the sac? or potentially with a veil? Can anyone offer any more information or am I completely wrong here?

anon113851
Post 24

My son is five months old and he was born with a caul. And to the guy/girl who said he had a scar on your spine, my son also has that. And his eyes always lock on something and follows it around the room. He'll be in a dead sleep and out of no where he'll start bawling or smile. And at five months it's not gas anymore. I honestly think he sees things and feels their emotion.

He is a pretty calm baby. I just want to thank all of you for letting me know all of this so I can try to understand him and support him in his choices.

anon108469
Post 23

I am thankful to God that you are out there. I am 50 now and never knew there were others born with a veil on their faces.

I have accepted that I have been set apart. I am a healer, an RN, a mental health intercessor and a youth leader. Most of the time I operate in the spiritual realm on the Lord's side. I have been called a psychic prophetess and have been betrayed. A calling for sure.

Use your gift for our Lord Jesus. We are in a spiritual warfare. We are victorious. Be blessed. Reading about drive by healings. Miracle babies.

anon103696
Post 22

I am a caulbearer also. my life has been one of loneliness and a great deal of sadness.

Sometimes, I will see something happen on tv, when I go to work and talk about what I saw, my co-workers look at me crazy. The events that I witness on tv have yet to take place. I see into other dimensions and can remember two past lives, there is a strange scar on my spine that no one in the family has been able to explain.

You cannot imagine my joy at finding this site, and knowing that I am not alone. For awhile I was beginning to think that I must be crazy as a loon. Thank you all for sharing your experiences.

anon103010
Post 21

I'm wondering if my son was born with a caul. I personally am an asatruar (norse or germanic pagan) and the belief is that if he had one when he was born and it was removed and discarded, he will lose his fetch or spirit animal/guide. any input on this because he was born with mucus and blood on some parts of his body but was born screaming to let the world know he was here.

anon96553
Post 20

I was born in the full sac, very prematurely; they said I was "swimming" in it. I don't know if the veil was on the face, or not, but to say I am "different" only grazes the surface.

I did not cry at birth, and was able to hold my head up on my own, move about crawling on my belly, and looked everyone in the room in the face, appearing to make focused eyed contact. I am not exactly a loner, but it seems like I might be turning into one. I am very careful who gets close to me. Most people think I am crazy.

I receive a lot of information I don't necessarily want from others. Often I have had problems discerning my emotions from those of others. I regularly predict big picture world trends and events years ahead of time, but seldom have I benefited from such abilities. I was told several times over the years that I was or should be a healer, and now have many abilities in that area including Reiki.

I have remembered certain past life events clearly since at least the age of two and have a birthmark in the spot where the fatal wound was delivered in that life. It seems I am destined to be a healer in this life, as my gifts are clearly aimed in this direction.

How to be most effective when being around humans is so problematic for me is still an issue.

So if being in the sac is not a caul, what is it? Maybe something more? Maybe a "coincidence"?

anon93279
Post 18

I finally found people who share the "gift". I have always been told by family from an early age that i was born with the veil over my face.

Although I cannot explain it, i can feel things before they happen. I cannot always tell who it is about or when but it's like intense anxiety, restlessness or a need to do something but I never know what it is i supposed to do.

I too, am a loner and have no friends because i not only can see their evil, but i can feel their pain. I don't like looking into people's eyes because i can see stuff and it bothers me. I finally found a place to tell my story without the strange looks. LOL!

anon91326
Post 17

I was born with a caul and I feel like I can see right through people too. It's a burden at times, because you feel like the world is full of fakes.

anon89189
Post 16

I am a 41 year old woman, who at the age of approximately 13 or so, I overheard that I was born with a veil over my face. I didn't understand what that meant, however, I was always able to see spirits and when I described to my mother, the person I saw the most, she informed me that it was my sister who passed away when I was nine months old.

At a later age, she informed me that when I was much younger, I had the ability and used to speak with my sister and that my sister had come back to take me. She said, just when I was leaving I told her I was going with my sister, she stopped me, fearing what would have happened next.

Right now I work in what used to be an orphanage and the sightings are more frequent than they have been in the recent past.

anon81121
Post 15

I too was born with a veil over the face. I was 22 years old when my mom first told me. Please believe anon62172. It is a gift from god. I am a loner and i have no friends and whenever i tried to get friends i could see betrayal. It would hurt me so.

I could not fit in no matter what i did or how nice i would be. Even my family treats me as though i am a stranger to this day. So i began to pray and get closer to god because in him i know i have a friend. The dreams, the feelings you pick up on, the tricks of the evil beings in your own family makes it so hard to deal. But i stay close to god.

Oh yes, it is a gift but with such a price. I have come to accept being a loner and i have also come to accept the fact that i am blessed and called upon to pray for people who can't quite see what i do. To all you cauls out there, this gift is for a reason. Stand strong and find out what it is. You are special. And you all are my brothers and sisters. God bless you.

anon75712
Post 14

I was born with a shimmering veil over my face and was told I would never drown. I have always felt very drawn to water and completely safe even in the worst conditions at sea.

I have tremendous insight, an incredibly instinct which always leads me down the right path and the ability to see right through people. My intuition always tells me whether or not someone is genuine, good or bad.

Unfortunately I believe that other people sense something in me as very few people seem to want to get close to me, almost out of fear and certainly out of misunderstanding.

There are many, many things I never speak about as I know I would be considered a bit 'wacky' or unstable, but I am simply in touch with my inner self and with the universe.

It is wonderful to be able to write this down as it is something which is not spoken about.

anon68940
Post 13

I was born in a sac (caul) and have amazing spiritual abilities. i fight demons on levels you cannot believe as well as see into other worlds,and travel spiritually to people in need and/sick. i truly am different and do not speak to others about my powers.

anon66224
Post 11

I was told by our family doctor that I was born with a caul. He said he only delivered two babies with an actual caul. My sister said she and my mom heard me cry a few days before I was born which indicated there was to be a death soon. My dad died three days after I was born.

I am the seventh daughter and never saw my dad. Lots of children were brought to me for me to blow three times into their mouths to cure the thrush. I still to this day (at 61) am asked to blow in babies' mouths.

Does anyone have info on these abilities?

anon64678
Post 10

my mother told me about 10 years ago that i was born with a veil (caul). i was so happy that she told me because it finally explained a lot of the things i hear and see.

i am extremely lucky and have always sensed crap in people. I feel so lucky and happy to have this gift, but i don't share it with people. They wouldn't understand.

anon62172
Post 9

After hearing all the stories I'll share a few things with you. Being born with a caul is a very special gift from god. You feel things, you see things that other people can't see or feel. You feel people's emotions and most of the time you don't want to. Yes, you're different. You will never fit in, so stop trying. It's not meant to fit in with this gift. I found that out, too

You see dreams more like a vision of the future You know when something is about to take place so it's no surprise. You have six senses. You feel all kinds of stuff. It's hard to go out and make friends because you see right through people for what they are or trying to be. They can't fool you and that alone makes it hard because you see the inner soul.

So most most people born with a caul are loners. They don't wont to be but can't help it Yes, you sense you're different and you are different. It's a beautiful gift, but it costs so much to have it. I hope this helps you all in your daily walk as a caulbearer.

anon61506
Post 8

our family doctor delivered all four children and two were caul births. my sister's face and my entire body. the doctor told my mom that old wives tales would tell her that this is very rare and has meaning so she went to the library in 1959 and could only find a small amount of info. Like if a ship was out at sea and was sinking anyone "born with a veil" would be tied to the mast, it was believed they could not drown.

my grandmother stella spoke to the stata baba babushka women in the neighborhood and heard the veil brings good luck, extreme beauty, great wealth, e.s.p. or you can't die a violent death.

being told as a child that i had this mysterious gift was a very positive thing for me. I had little premonitions that come true (but don't we all?)

i am very very lucky and win a lot and i feel i can always tell when i am being lied to. Anyway, i could go on and on about this but in the back of my mind i feel i am being superstitious and silly and the fact that my life so far has been fantastic couldn't be because of a uncommon birth veil but i am glad i am able to research this as i have always been curious and love to know more.

anon51142
Post 7

My grandmother and I were both born with a caul. My mother obviously knew what it was when I came along so I still have mine preserved. It is now 62 years old and looks like a piece of very fine see-through tissue paper. Its appearance has not changed from I was first shown it over 50 years ago. I have always had an overpowering affinity with water.

anon47175
Post 6

I have never herd of a caul before. This is interesting and exciting.

anon46207
Post 5

To be born a caulbearer, the face of the infant is covered by what looks like a shimmering veil. Being born in a complete amniotic sac is *not* being "born with a veil" (a caulbearer) This is widely misunderstood, so if you happened to be born in a sac that covered your entire body, I'm sorry, you're not a caulbearer. How do I know? I am a caulbearer and have the veil preserved. Note: You can be born in a sac, removed from the sac with a shimmering veil still covering the face, hence a caulbearer birth. I have many of the traits described about caulbearers. This gift is not easy to deal with in life, as I feel very much alone and uniquely different. It can be a heavy weight on the mind to bear and very hard to explain to everyday people. Take care everyone.

anon44813
Post 4

When I was giving birth, my midwife asked me if I wanted the sac to be be torn, I said no, so my daughter was born in the sac but then it tore on its own just as she was born. I am interested in knowing other stories and legends of babies born in the sac. I have heard these children are very mystical and it certainly is true for my daughter.

anon35553
Post 3

In african american communities it is believed that a child born with a face veil had a link between both worlds and could see the dead.

anon16699
Post 2

my mom told me I too was born completely in the sac and the nurse had to take me out.

anon13288
Post 1

I have found lots of information about caul births but nothing on births like my daughters where she was born in a complete amniotic sac that the nurse tore with her fingers which appeared to free my daughter in a gush of water. I only saw this briefly as my partner was almost sick and faint saying I'd given birth to an alien (only to have shock 2 a replica of her brother, it is hard to tell them apart on baby photos) but i remember correct or not the sac being whitish with red and purple small veins)

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